Sunday, November 13, 2011

what's wrong?

You know when you get the feelings when you just don't know what really happen but you just feel all moody and sad. When you think about it, you can't seem to find what the cause is. Everything just don't feel right at that time. It's not even feeling bad about something. Just the feeling where you want to lie down on the floor, music blazing as loud as it is, and just forget about the world.

That is exactly what I'm feeling right now, for the whole day.

But instead of doing what I have described above, I do none of it. I manage to smile, I spend my day studying, and just doing my life like usual, even though given the day I spent most of it alone. The loneliness in this house didn't even make me wanna do lying on the floor thing. Why? I don't really know. But maybe because I'm just too tired of being tired of everything. Maybe I just want to be strong for once. Maybe I just want to be positive for a day. Maybe I just see this as a normal, seasonal thing. Or maybe it's just the hormone. But overall. I tell you, trying to lift yourself up when you're down is not an easy thing. I can't really concentrate on my studies. At times I just wanna hit my head on the table. I even found myself say this out loud, "Shut the fuck up," because my brain can't stop talking and imagining shit that'll never happen. hahaha.. But overall, those music helps me, those inspirational helps me, and I watched movies to distract myself. Because I know tomorrow will be a good day if I let it. There's no point in dragging this stupid feelings get by day by day. I'm just gonna tell myself that everyday from now.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Emosi?

Kenapa sekarang ni aku senang sangat menangis? Melihat kepada post sebelum ni, tajuk pun dah tau aku harap Oktober akan berjalan lancar. Tapi overall, macam lain plak jadinya. Yelah kan, aku takleh nak buat apa, aku cuma merancang, Allah swt yang tentukan. Kalau Allah nak jadikan bulan tu tak best, tak best la jadinya, tapi mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya. So bulan ni aku find out aku banyak menangis la pulak. hahaha.. Bukan nak show yang kita ni lemah, after all, since birth, it has been a sign that we're alive, tak gitu? Tapi tu lah, manusia semua ada tahapnya, ada masa boleh bersabar, ada masa perlu diluahkan, bila tak luah tu lah dia terluah jadi air mata.

Bulan ni banyak benda yang mencabar aku. Aku terima banyak benda yang mengejutkan, yang akan change my future, yang boleh memburukkan keadaan dan sebgainya. But overall, ni dah masuk November, aku taknak harap lebih2 tapi aku tawakkal je dgn Allah swt, dgn apa jua cabaran dia bagi kat aku, aku tau, Dia lebih tau aku kuat menghadapinya, kalau tak dia takkan bagi cabaran macam tu kat aku.

Even though Oktober seems not that good, tapi disebalik tu ada jugak yang best2 sbnrnya. So aku harus bersyukur jugak, Allah itu Maha Adil, dia takkan bagi musibah je kat hamba dia kan? :) Minggu lepas convocation aku. Kat situ lah rasa hebat nya naik pentas walaupun cuma 10 saat je. hahaha... Walau apa pun, menerima sijil tu aku realize banyak benda. Selama 3 tahun menghadapi Diploma, dengan penuh senyuman, gelak, lepak tak tentu masa, assignment dan event yang boleh pecah kepala, tak cukup tidur, heartbreaks, tangisan, penggunaan dan pembaziran duit yang meluas, gaining new friends and also lose some, and of course the experience, I can finally say this: I made it!

Aku tahu banyak orang dan situasi yg boleh buat aku tabah selama 3 tahun tu dan menolong aku and be there for me when I need them. Especially to my mom, the one who's been receiving my endless calls, kejap complain pasal tak cukup duit (selalunya ni la, haha), kejap nangis sebab stress sangat, kejap complain pasal lelaki...haha..macam2 la...tapi mak tetap dengar & she always have the best answer and advice for me. Thank you, mom. To all my friends, I love all of you. Sama ada dekat or jauh, dgn skype, or chat, or phone, kita tetap rapat and you guys are always there when I have problems, or just be there when I have something juicy and happy things to tell. Ha, kwn2 yg dekat lagi lah, sayang korang semua! haha.. Thank you my dear friends. Yang tak lagi berkawan ke tak rapat ke, I know in a way you guys ada jugak tolong and memainkan peranan dlm process aku nk dptkan diploma ni, so in a way, aku ucap terima kasih jugak. Korang la bagi aku semangat & experience dlm hidup sbnrnya (dan ini bkn menganjing ke ape ye, ikhlas :) )



So dalam sedar tak sedar, dah November, sebulan lagi, habis dah 2011 ni. Cepat nya mak aih. Tak terasa langsung. Mana pergi cuti 4 bulan dulu? Dulu bukan main lg merungut lama nk mampos cuti, skrg tak sabar2 dah nk cuti balik. haha.. Tapi aku boleh katakan la yang tahun ni is such a good year, might be my favourite among all that I can remember and cherish. Maybe sebab aku dah smakin membesar, dan sikit skali berubah. Walaupun banyak lagi mistake & dosa aku buat, tak kira dgn manusia ke Tuhan, aku akan cuba perbaikinya dari hari ke hari. Aku harap bulan Nov ni tak lah emosional sgt. Emo sgt ni maybe dah letih kot, pastu aaahh ada lah. haha... apa2 pun, kadang2 aku buat salah besar kat orang, do know that sometimes I dont mean it, and sometimes ter-burst it out. Minta maaf banyak banyak. :\ Dan semoga kita lalui hari hari kita penuh rasa rendah diri dan tawakal dgn Allah swt. :)

A little pictures of me and my friends at the convo <3


Saturday, October 1, 2011

October Wish

Hello October,

Dah dekat sebulan dah aku masuk degree ni and so far so good lah. One thing for sure aku nak cerita ni, life kat sini sgt hectic, busy, semak, and pack. Dengan masalah terlalu banyak manusia nya, terlalu banyak kereta smpai nak carik parking kt kawasan rumah sendiri pun makan masa 15 minit pusing-pusing, dengan kelas pack macam haram, and aku boleh cakap yang first masuk sini mmg agak blow in the face la sebab terkejut, especially bab busy2 ni. Sebab bukan ape, dah la dulu diploma part 6 free gila satu kelas seminggu, pastu tambah lg cuti 4 bulan, memang otak kosong bhai. Tiba-tiba ni masuk, first week dah ada 3 assignment, kelas pecah muka 4 kelas tiap-tiap hari dr 8.30 smpai 9 malam. Takes time jugak ar nak masuk system kepala otak ni. But in anyway, kena get use to it jugak. Minggu ketiga ni dah boleh dah slow, senyum senyum masuk kelas. Kalau dulu first week mulut tak lekang complain ah.

Datang sini, I know I didnt really come prepared about the busyness, but I did come prepared pasal social life sini. Having some friends kat kampus ni sebelum masuk gives me a lot of advantage. Because they prepared me mentally, warned me about social and stuff here, the classes, the lecturers, the whole system, and I got to know bangunan, tempat dan kawasan dgn senang.Sampai kawan cakap, aku ni sbnrnya dah lama masuk degree, cuma repeat xmau bagitau orang je. hahaha bodoh.

Cakap pasal social kan, one thing I've come prepared la, yang orang akan berubah kat sini. I am not gonna be surprised kalau ada yg dulu rapat gila skrg jadi strangers, ada yang kawan biasa jadi rapat gila, ada yang pandai jadi repeaters, yang repeaters and used to main2 skrg bersemangat...semua boleh jadi lah! Aku pun boleh berubah jugak, we'll see about that. Sekarang aku hidup dgn satu benda ni je. Aku malas nak fake, sorry lah orang yang aku malas nak tegur tu, aku ignore je. Daripada aku fake buat muka happy pastu kat belakang kita kutuk masing2 buat apa ye dok? Yang penting kita tak kacau hidup orang.

Anyway, let me tell you about budget and money plak. I think 3 minggu dah kt sini, I've used up more than 2000. All of that includes books, household items, minyak kreta, and makan. Gila kan? Tapi xpelah, aku faham sebab first month mmg camni. Lagi2 part nak beli buku tu, buku xnak banyak plak, satu buku more than 60..aduih sakit betul.

Well so far macam tu lah first experience degree. Walaupun ianya lain dan agak susah tapi kita semua perlu teruskan hidup, be positive always and habiskan degree ni cepat2...hahaha..And aku harap bulan baru yang datang ni akan menjadi lebih positive, cabaran yang datang dpt aku pikul dgn ringan je and errr dah malas nak mengharap2 ni so better focus on apa yang ada je. Terima Kasih. :)

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Life

The other day I thought about this year, 2011. Though it didn't run the whole 12 month course yet, but overall I think it's a super awesome year. I had some downs but the ups keeps me looking forward for the future. I remembered the day before 2011 starts, I thought to myself how would I want the next year to be. I believed it will be a good year and I'm not expecting anything, just let my heart, hand and mind open for whatever coming for me. And so far, this year it treated me real good. I'm starting a new semester in a new place, new studies, and maybe some new friends, and I hope the greatness and awesomeness of this year continues. Well lets not hope for it, believe it will happen. Because believing so far gives me strength, instead of just hoping, wondering, and expecting. I know there will come tears, disappointment, heartbreaks for the coming month, but that is life. And I love my life. End of story.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

All about mysteries


I just love doing lists. And I'm about to do now as well.

People often ask me, what kind of movies you like to watch? Dulu tak tau nak cakap camana, sebab asal cerita tu bagus, ada favourite actor, anticipated movies, I would watch it. So petang td I was as usual trying to fill up my free times, so I watched movies. And I just noticed that everytime I choose, it would be in this genre: Mystery/thriller/sci-fi combine. You know the kind of movies yg buat kita fikir, yang unpredictable, yang complicated, yang hujung2 cerita kita baru kita tau kenapa itu ini. Some says movies ni berat sikit, yeah well maybe. But so far none that I watched has disappoint me. These are my top fives (yes again the list -__-). Kita mula dari yang kelima ok. hehe


#Fifth
The Number 23
Cerita ni ada slow sikit. Warning, mungkin b
uat anda tertidur. Tapi jalan cerita the best. Jim Carrey memang terer bawak watak psycho. More on the movie: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0481369/


#Fourth
Shutter Island

Hoi boleh gila tau dak tgk movie ni. Punyalah buat kita fikir sampai kita boleh confuse apa sebenarnya berlaku. As usual, hujung cerita baru kita cam, "Oooohhhhhh...."

#Third
V For Vendetta

Yang ni I sangat2 recommend for EVERYONE. Kalau boleh kan, serapkan apa2 motivasi dari story ni masuk kepala terus. Sebab everything is true and everything about it is totally a reflects of what happen in our country now. That's why asal ada apa2 berlaku yg berbentuk politik di dunia kita ni, orang akan timbulkan quotes dr movie ni, mula pakai the Fawkesian mask yg V pakai tu. Although V tak pernah tunjuk muka, tp suara dia cairrrr beb. Sedap gila. Sbb tu suara dia jadi Megatron, n also byk berlakon jadi penjahat yg mempunyai suara yang mega.


#Second
Inception

Actually, I'm torn between this and the first one, cuz Inception as good as the first one. This movie will make you kerut dahi in concentration, it brings you so deep, you can't tear yourself off the storyline. Oh bonus part is some of the actors are my favorite *Joseph & Marion*. This movie is creative, serious thought up, and just pure genius. After the movie, I guarantee you will think about yourself and what really happen when you're asleep. It put out a very important point here which is how powerful an idea can be. Cause Idea can spread like cancer.

#First
The whole series of Harry Potter

Before you say anything, I know I know you was like, "What?!" "Ini bukan mystery ni!". Mula2 pun I think like that but when I think about it, Harry Potter series combined, if there was no book, and we're talking about the movies alone, it would be one super epic of awesomeness of a movie. Haha.. Because why? Tell me which movie can create a whole new world as excellent as this? Whats with the names, the magic, the spells, and the mystery behind it all. And tell me why it has become the third best movie in the whole wide world after Titanic and Avatar? And to see the last of the series, unravel the whole mysteries of what really happened 10 years ago, from the first story. Nobody in this world don't know about this movie, right? Never seen, yes, but oblivious of it, NO. If there was one, they'd probably live in the jungle and even they have the reason to be the exception. So yeah, Harry Potter deserve a number 1 spot in my heart.

Some other recommendations of good movies like above are as below:
The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button, The Vantage Point, Limitless, Atonement...

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Ibu Pertiwiku


1Malaysia.

Apa maksud 1Malaysia kepada semua Malaysian?

Kat sini saya nak bercerita sikit pasal my own opinion. Bukan pasal 1Malaysia tapi apa yang saya selalu lalui sebagai seorang Malaysian, and also, Sarawakian.

Situasi 1: Sudah menjadi kebiasaan kita2 orang biasa kena isi borang secara online, especially borang Government matters. Tak kira la untuk loan ke, untuk masuk U ke, apa2 lah. Tapi part paling tak best adalah time isi part "RACE/BANGSA". Yeah some people akan questionkan kenapa perlu tau ini in general, dlm IC kita pun takdak benda ni kan? Cakap 1Malaysia. Ok itu bukan persoalannya sebab sy tak brapa kisah pun. Yang menjadi persoalan disini, dan menjadikan saya kisah disini ialah dalam banyak2 bangsa yang perlu diisi, kenapa ada perbezaan antara "Melayu" dengan "Melayu Sarawak" dan "Melayu Sabah"?

Secara logiknya mungkin maksudnya Melayu Sarawak/Sabah adalah campuran melayu dgn bumiputera (ie; Iban, melanau, kadazan, etc). Since skrg byk percampuran kaum dah kan. Tapi kan, does it really matter? Mari kupaskan persoalan ini. For one, Kita tau dlm Malaysia ni Melayu mendapat priority utama, begitu jugak Bumiputera Sabah & Sarawak. So kalau definisi Melayu Sabah/Sarawak sy ckp td betul, perlukah? Kenapakah? Motif? Kejadah? haha

Saya bukan marah, saya cuma rasa...apa org ckp? Erm... terpinggir. Haaaa...haha... Tak la terpinggir camana pun. Nasib baik saya ni Melayu je, biasanya letak Melayu jelah. Nonetheless sy ada darah Cina, like 1/4 je sbb nenek perempuan Cina. Kalau ada jugak option Melayu Cina memang.....speechless lah. Sik ku terkabir nak explen. I mean come on, cuba tgk kat dlm diri kita ni masing2, ada ke yang Melayu tulen? Ada tu baguslah, be proud. Tapi I can say that majority of us are not that tulen, btol x? Grenti ada yang bercampur2 dah, tak kira la campuran dia 3/4, 2/4, 1/4, 1/2.....Tapi ada je kan yang Melayu + Bugis, Melayu + India, Melayu + Cina, Melayu + Jawa, Melayu + ....dan sbgainya. Tapi ada tak option tu dlm borang? Takde? Kenapa yang Sarawak & Sabah dikecualikan? *Pause*

Situasi 2: Benda ni selalu berlaku dalam newspaper & berita-berita utama di TV di Malaysia. Let's compare the example so you will understand better.

"Undang-undang dikuatkuasakan di seluruh Malaysia termasuk Sabah dan Sarawak"

"....diseluruh Malaysia termasuk Sabah dan Sarawak."

Okay, faham tak konteks di atas? Sekarang saya nak pembaca compare pulak kalau saya buat camni:

"Undang-undang dikuatkuasakan diseluruh Malaysia termasuk Kedah dan Kelantan."

"...diseluruh Malaysia termasuk Melaka dan Johor."

*contoh*

Now the question is....perlu ke letak termasuk Sabah dan Sarawak apabila dalam sejarah Sabah dan Sarawak is a part of Malaysia since 1963. Dah memang dia letak SELURUH MALAYSIA, lepas tu letak lagi termasuk Sabah dan Sarawak. Well, thankyouverymuchforthecredit. Cuba kalau negeri lain dibuat camtu, rasa2nya pelik tak? Haaa korang pikir la sendiri. Malas dah nak membebel.

Ha tu jelah situasi2 yang selalu berlaku kat sini. Pernah sekali aku (kejap aku kejap saya, kau ni....) tgk ada perarakan berlaku kat tempat dirahsiakan di semenanjung (muahaha) dan setiap kontijen membawa bendera negeri2 di Malaysia. Aku pun bersorak mcm apa, sampailah satu kontijen tu bwk bendera Sarawak. I was like sscreeeeeccchhhh *bunyi radio rosak*. Dia punyalah bangga bawak bendera Sarawak yang lama punya. Eh aku pun xtau yg lama ke ape ke sebab kan yg dia bawak tu langsung tak nampak mcm bendera Sarawak. Moha aku tok eh time ya. *Ha carik sendiri maksud moha*

Setahu aku lah kan, 1st bendera sarawak (1848 - 1870) macamni:


James Brooke punya influence hence the cross

Second bendera Sarawak (1870-1941) under the influence of Charles Brooke:

Third bendera Sarawak under British Governor (after 1941):


Fourth bendera Sarawak 1946-1963:


Fifth bendera Sarawak 1973-1988:



And finally the current bendera Sarawak 1988 till now:


Annnnddddddddd among ALL these bendera TAKDE SATU PUN yang similar dgn apa yang orang tu bawak time perarakan tu. I remember it till now because it is a disgrace for me not to have the courtesy to even buy a new and correct bendera. Ade je kot jual merata kat pasar. I still remember dia punya bendera tu macam Negeri Sembilan punya tapi kaler lain sikit. Time tu aku punyalah nak bersorak utk kontijen tu tapi aku terus cam, "Aik, tu bukan Sarawak punya." And aku bgtau kawan2 aku tapi dorang buat dek je sebab its not even their concern. I dont blame them. But you know how I feel when your negeri punya bendera, as simple as that been shown off to people in a perarakan, TAPI SALAH BENDERA. Aku tau none of the people in the kontijen are Sarawakian so dorang pun xtau agaknya. Sabar jelah. Aku membebel kat atas pun korang belajar sikit2 pasal bendera Sarawak kan? Hahaha...

Apa apa pun aku nak bagitau satu je. Please, never should we see the difference between human beings for their colour, race, & ethnicity. After all, what's the purpose of that so-called 1Malaysia?

p/s: Mesti korang dah cam, "Eh bising lah dia ni, pasal tu pun nak besarkan." I will answer, Ada aku kesah? hahahha. Cuba lah try jadi org Sarawak/Sabah then aku nak tgk korang jawab camana. hua hua hua

Assalamualaikum.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Challenge Accepted!

Mulai esok I will try these as a challenge for myself.

#1 Bangun awal. Sebelum tengah hari. kehkehkeh susah benor nk bangun especially bila takde kerja.

#2 Avoid internet. Kurangkan lah.

#3 Start baking again

#4 Read all those un-read books. Hmm I might read my un-touch bday gift Islamic book. hehe

#5 Go to Masjid for terawikh

#6 Sembahyang di awal waktu

#7 Well...just do something that is beneficiary.

Hope it'll work. Super excited!

Friday, July 29, 2011

Sepadankah Aku Dengan Mu?



Haaa dah enjoy video di atas? Best kan lagu ni? Lagu ni pun ada kena mengena dgn tajuk post kali ni, iaitu ada kena mengena pasal Ramadhan. Lebih kurang 3 hari lagi kita umat Islam akan menunaikan salah satu Rukun Islam, Berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan.

Beberapa hari lepas, aku ada join cermah agama ni kt Kuching. Mula2 malas sangat, biasalah kta remaja benda camni berat bontot nak pegi. Tapi minggu ni serious tak productive gila so aku fikir, why not give it a shot? At first bila dah sampai sana, syaitan bukan main lagi bisik, nak naikkan ego aku taknak dgr, anggap smua ni tak best. Tapi penceramah tu mmg best, aku akui la. Sbb aku pay attention & hmpr buat hati keras cam aku ni berair mata. Nama penceramah ni, Dr. Robiah, nama panjang tak ingat tp dia slalu klua TV.

Pendek cerita aku nak kongsi sikit apa yg aku dpt dr ceramah ni. After all ceramah ni banyak buat aku gelak, dia byk buat lawak, at the same time touched our hearts, sbb tu best. Tajuk ceramah hari tu, "Ramadhan: Sepadankah Aku Dengan Mu?"

People will wonder, what does it mean? Lets go down the road okay. Berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan adalah rukun Islam ketiga, tetapi persoalannya, adakah rukun yang pertama dan kedua telah sempurna kita lakukan? Pertamanya Mengucap Khalimah syahadah dan keduanya Sembahyang Lima Waktu. Zaman nabi dulu, sahabat2 nabi semua rindu akan bulan ini, berdoa kepada Allah SWT agar percepatkan Ramadhan utk menghampiri, dan kalau boleh nak setahun2 itu adalah Ramadhan. Betapa besarnya Ramadhan bagi mereka. Bulan ini terlalu suci, sehingga kita diwajibkan untuk berpuasa. Jadi untuk melaksanakan rukun yg ketiga dgn sempurna, adakah sempurna rukun yg pertama & kedua kta? Telah kita selami maksud khalimah syahadah itu dan telah kita lakukan sembahyang lima waktu dengan sempurna?

Semua orang tahu kita wajib berpuasa. Anak2 kecik pun dah dididik dr kecik utk berpuasa. Penceramah ada bercerita banyak pasal ni, iaitu mendidik ank2 cara yg betul. Dorongan dengan memberi duit, memberi hadiah & lain2 kalau dpt puasa adlh dorongan yg bagus tp hati2 atas galakan yg diberikan. Pastikan mereka tahu mereka buat semua ini atas nama Allah SWT, dan bukan kerana nak kumpul duit dan sbgainya. After all, semua yang kita lakukan, lakukanlah dengan niat untuk Allah SWT. I wont further much abt this didikan yg dia ajar cuz banyak sgt & I cant remember it. But that exactly is her point.

Bulan Ramadhan as we all know, kita bukan je puasa perut tp puasa mata, telinga, hidung, mulut dan segala deria lah. Bukan maksudnya tak boleh langsung, tapi menjaganya dari benda yg tak berfaedah/tak baik. Ramai nanti kita tgk yg akn mula bertudung, a good dorongan utk menjaga permakanan, berhenti merokok, tak mengumpat & sbgainya. Siapa yang jaga semua ni, good job! Tp malangnya ada jugak yg akn mengkritik org lain, contohnya kepada yg acah2 bertudung di bulan Ramadhan je, tp lps tu hilang tudung. Bagi mereka yg akn mendengar cemuhan ni, biarkan jelah. I'd say, good job too for those yg menjaga aurat mereka, tak kisahlah berapa lama mereka nak pakai. Atleast, diorang try, right? Atleast diorg menghormati bulan ini. Dr. juga menegur prkara ni. Jgn jadikan bln puasa satu persinggahan sementara. Jgn jdkan berpuasa sebab utk berhenti rokok. Jgn jdikan puasa sebab utk berdiet. Jgn time puasa bersedekah macam hujan, tapi lepas Ramadhan terus kemarau (this is her exact word, and people laughed so hard ;). Tapi sebetulnya, jadikan semua yg aku sebut tadi sebagai dorongan shja, sbgai semangat, dan yg lainnya semua kerana Allah SWT.

Aku ni manusia biasa, hidup penuh dengan dosa. Jadi harapan aku Ramadhan kali ini Ramadhan yang terbaik, yang dapat memberi aku manfaat dalam hidup. Aku cuba untuk kurangkan rasa marah, emosi dan lain2 yang tak bagus dan cuba kawalkan. Aku akan cuba untuk buat amalan yang bagus bulan depan nnt, daripada duduk kt rumah menghadap laptop tgk movie. Aku akan cuba untuk tingkatkan amalan aku dengan Allah dan semoga Dia terima amalan aku, insyaAllah. Dan semua ini peringatan untuk diri sendiri jugak. Apa yang aku bgtau kt atas tak semua yang Dr. Robiah tu cakap, dia pun cakap 2 jam, kat sini xsmpai stgh jam aku karang. So, apa yang kurang semuanya kat umat Dia ni, dan semua yang baik datangnya dr Allah SWT.

=)

P/S: Dr. pesan bagi yg liat nak bersahur...sahur adalah sunah Rasulullah, begitu juga makan kurma dan minum susu. Maka makanlah kamu kurma, minumlah susu, dan bersahurlah kamu tanda kamu mencintai Rasulullah SAW. =)

Friday, July 22, 2011

See below


Cause you just can't shut up. It's all about you, isn't it?

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Dear Heart & Brain,

I'm having dilemma.

I'm being indecisive of between worth it or not.

My heads and heart are telling me different things.

Here's the problem.

My friends have been planning to go KL next week, for months, and have bought the ticket. I told them I wish I could come & they invited. You see, I'm in Kuching, and having to travel to KL takes a lot of money. Everyday passes by, the price hiked up. Weeks ago I told myself not to go. Well, because it will need a lot of money. Not just the plane, the fuel (I have a car waiting), the lepaks, the foods, eventhough it'll be a 5 days trip. And just when I make up my mind, my friends, both from semenanjung & sarawak begged me to go. It's a win-win situation for them. And suddenly I heard the clearance of our campus needed to be done by the end of this month, which exactly the time the holiday was planned. That fact didn't bother me that much, but that fact, you see, is strong enough to convince my mom to pay for this trip. Haha. Perfect timing right? Righhhttt...

Then she told me a few things which makes me think twice abt this trip, worth it or not? She said that I shouldn't bother my aunt at S.A, where my car is located. Usually we asked for her help to pick us up from airport & her house has become my 2nd home there. I mean, I really don't want to bother her, she has her own life. That means I have to find my own way to get my car if I want to travel around with it, within those 5 days. Which meanssss train & buses are the choice. And when I go back, I would need someone's help again to bring my car back to S.A and send me to airport. That's a lot of hassle right?

When I'm indecisive, I always list out the pros & cons. The only few pros I can come out with are, (1) I could settle the clearance; & (2) I could hangout with my friends, give my friends from srwk a sight-seeing tour or wtvr. The cons? (1) Money, money, money. (2) Bothers a lot of people. Yes, both are equal, 2-2.

I hate being in this situation. Because the cons, are winning in my head. Yes, brain, I'm talking to you and your logics. T____T

Help me.

Sincerely,
Lost.

Mushroom head


I cut my hair petang td. Igt nak buat pixie cut, yg pendek gila mcm Emma Watson or Halle Berry tu. Haha.. Tapi tak jadi, I dunno what happened. :p So last2 if nak tau camana rupa dia, mcm gmbr diatas. Mcm Katherine McPhee ni haaa.... Tapi xdo lah muka cantik mcm dia kan. And takdelah blond mcm dia. Tp mcm ni lah ha. Hahaha.. I love this new change. Ringan & tak boring. I can't really put my picture, I'd rather not. Cuz pemakai tudung kan. hahaha.. That's why Katherine jd mangsa.haha.. Xpe, dia lagi comel than me. But right now, my head look like a mushroom cuz I'm chillin n dont care how I look. hahaha

Sunday, July 10, 2011

B. 2.0 the opinion



As we all Malaysian know what has happened on the 9th July 2011 in Kuala Lumpur, one of a...well I can't really say it's a tragedy or an event or whatever but it's the rally of bersih 2.0 and I'm pretty sure a lot of us take sides, be neutral, and have our own opinion in this.

For me, I'm neutral. I see from all sides, I heard the stories from media, from people who joined, from people around me, but I didn't get the chance to get at least one opinion from the police or political sides, though. From what I have seen, read, and observe, let me tell you this. Do not believe the media 100%. Being a media person myself, I have to say it no matter what. Some side of the story may be true but NOT all. Here are pictures I print screen from the movie V For Vendetta. Go watch it if you have time, it has a lot of similarity of what's happening in our world today.

"This is the scene where there are 2 media people talking abt the new news came out. The girl asked him, would people be buying the stories? This is his answer:"

"Our job is to report the news, not fabricate it. That's the government's job."

I won't elaborate more on those pictures because I know you understand it. After all the media in our country is not truly free; there are no freedom of speech. Well let's get back to the topic, cuz if I started talking about media and its freedom, one post of blog is not enough. haha..

A lot of us here just sit and home, watch television and curse those people who we think is responsible for all these shenanigans. A few of us are in the Bersih's side, and a few of us are in the government's sides. For me, I have my own opinion as I watch from afar. Forgive me if I'm wrong but I'm not giving advice or preaches, this is just an opinion.

The bersih's real aim has a lot to do with freedom and clean form of politics, voting system, and media. There are pros and cons here for me. I mean it's hard, almost impossible to reach. Some people said that it's stupid to do this rally, as it waste energy, force, money, time, and mostly affect the country's economy. Yes, that is the case we can see as a lot of people that is not involved affected, and mad as hell. The people who work around there have trouble getting in and it affects most shops that it can't do anything but shut down. Some people said why not use other means, other ways to make yourself heard? Or just talk it out, have a meeting. When we think about it, can it really be done? Think about it. A few people and a few signed petition won't get you heard in this country. I guess this is one way to be heard. Suara rakyat bergabung after all that makes the government scared, and finally listened. Well, why not make it in one place, and settled it there, no need to close down the road? From what I read, our PM has approved of making Stadium Merdeka as the place for the rally, but somehow the police did not. I don't know how this government work, seriously. They said it's an illegal rally, haram. Why haram? As far as I know, in a democratic country, we are allowed to do demonstration, unless it is violence. From what I see and been told from the people involved, they are just walking around, chanting, supposedly peaceful rally. I don't know, judge the story yourself. Perhaps the quote "Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah" is quite appropriate for this situation.

It has ended, and I guess the memorandum didn't get into our King's hand. A lot of struggle, complication, and consequences come from this, but I think at least they have made their voices heard and I see there are a lot more unity of 1Malaysia from this than the gathering of 1Malaysia campaign. I see a lot of us arguing just because of this, curse here and there. I don't really blame them, I would do that too. After all we can't really expect quietness in our country, there must be some drama right? Haha, k I'm kidding. Don't get me wrong, I'm not in any sides, even politics are the last thing on earth I want to be involve to. Just one thing though, when we want to judge what really happen, we should really look into it real deep. =)

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Realization

Assalamualaikum,

Arini kan arini, ex-skolah menengah aku buat event food & fun fair tau. SMK St Teresa Food & Fun Fair namanya. My sister still skolah sana, and kelas dia bukak gerai so datang igt nak support2 la knonnya kan. Padahal paw duit mak. hahaha.. Lepas tu kan lepas tu I noticed a few things while I jalan-jalan kat skolah lama tu, reminsce memory lah konon. Antara benda-benda yang aku prasan kan.....

1. Pengunjung lebih banyaknya lelaki. Itu skolah perempuan. Depan skolah tu ada skolah lelaki jugak. Soooo I can bet la 99% lelaki yg datang tu semuanya dari skolah seberang. Haha typical.

2. Aku ni antara orang-orang tertinggi (dr segi height,bukan anarchy.haha) di sekolah pada zaman-zaman aku dulu. And I still am. Muahahaha... eh opps kecuali adik aku sorang. -.-

3. The school haven't changed a bit. Tua dah skolah tu. Mula beroperasi sejak 1888 kot.

4. Budak-budak, aweks aweks skolah aku tu still sama, typical punya budak budak. Yelah kan, setiap skolah ada dia punya 'trademark' punya orang, like if org dgr bdk ni dr skolah sekian2, org terus stereotype. Skolah aku ni org stereotype sbgai budak2 gedik, budak2 up, tapi pandai & skillful. Hantaq ja pertandingan mana2 grenti menang. HAHAHAHA. Aku up kah? Non ado. Nama dah stereotype kan. Orang jeles kot. :p Tapi tu lah, actually sesetengah mmg berperangai mcm tu pun, so aku tgk tadi pun mcm, taaaakk berubah gak.Aku harap korang semua hidup baik2 ah lps skolah ye.

5. Takdak junior hot. HAHA. Ok tak penting.

6. Ini paling best. Orang tak kenal aku sebab I've changed a lot since the past 4 years. Nak kenal malin 4 thn yg lepas? Dia bertudung alim, muka pecah, pemalu, tak ckp banyak, jalan serong2, tak pandai fesyen, jalan tgk bawah........hahaha... Sekarang you judge ah. Ramai kenalan skolah lama add balik kt fb, semua was like, "Omaigod, is that you malin?", "Yarabi Malin, makin kacak eh..." (Yeeeeerrrddeeehhh, muji dirik ko ya) HAHAHA.

7. Aku adalah pelopor nama Malin. HAHA. Tak pecaya? Meh sini cerita. Time dulu2 masa bgtau semua nama ni Malin, orang cam x caya. Macam pelik. Unik. Lagipun time tu cerita indon "Malin Kundang" tu tgh top! Makin la kena bahan kan? Tapi orang bahan skejap je. U noe why? Because I never bother. I was like bila org panggil Malin Kundang, "Hehe, good one!" Or just gelak je. I kinda like that name & org pun I guess tgk aku confident dgn nama tu, so melekat la. Years go by, Malin Akerman, a popular actress semakin menaik nama dia. Pi google sendiri, mesti familiar kan muka dia? Sebab dia banyak berlakon comedy. Sejak tu kan, ramai dah sama nama ngn aku. Ada adik kawan aku sendiri nama dia Amalina di panggil Malin. Yang buat aku ckp semua ni sebab td asyik tersalah orang bila orang panggil Malin! Malin! Padahal utk org lain. Hmmm I still remember how people use to joke this name and are quite ashamed of the name becuz of the kundang thing. hahahaha

Haaaa itu jelah aku nak cerita. ngeee~

Friday, July 1, 2011

What's on your mind?

Aku suka makan makanan masam. Buah, masakan, dan sos (nandos!) fuh semua suka!

Aku benci sos cili. I tak makan ah benda tu. Kalau orang tengok mesti ingat takut pedas kan? Tapi tak sebenarnya. Bau sos cili ja dah buat pening kepala. -___-

Aku benci peanut butter. Yuks! (kenapa semua psl makanan ni? haha)

I have a thing for bald or close-cropped man with stubble. Read: Jason Stateham

Mr Jason - Sexxxaayyyhhh - Stateham

If I have money, I would like to go to Vancouver or Toronto, Canada.

I have written 6 novels, not yet published of course. haha. Started at the age of 13.

I love listening to people's life story. Tp brotha, kalau kau asyik cakap pasal kau sorang, memang tak jalan ah. Two-way communication bhai.

If kau berhasrat nak tegur aku, jangan biarkan conversation tergantung. Takkan aku plak nak keep the conversation interesting? poodah!

When I work, I work. I rarely do complain. But when I did, there's something way too wrong with that situation.

I don't know why, kenapa orang susah nak take me seriously? You think I'm a joke is it? This happens a lot in my family especially.

I don't see the outside quality of a guy. I only look for one thing, the who can lead me in life, perhaps lead to a better future. Complicated? Think again. :)

Pukul 1am in my time adalah macam pukul 9 pm. Terlalu awal. haha

Aku menyampah dengan lelaki kuat merajuk. Hempuk mau?

Silent is my deadliest weapon.

Oh, I also menyampah dengan lelaki yang nak mengajak keluar tapi dia suruh kita belanja. Whatever happens to ask for a simple hang out/date/outing?

I always enjoy sitting in the plane for 2 hours. Because I can think. Lost in deep thought and just stare out at the clouds outside. Hate talking to strangers, though. That's why I never minded being on a flight.

Siapa tak suka ice cream McD yang Sunday yg coklat tu, angkat tangan. *angkat dua tangan* Yes, shoot me. but those chocolate makes me wanna vomit. Sorry Sunday lovers. But strawberry is still okay. Oh but but I love chocolate, dont get me wrong. Just not THAT chocolate. Tah sapa supplier. -.-

Aku kuat makan. Tapi fail untuk menaikkan berat. Baru haritu check 50 kg, harini check lagi turun 1 kg. Gila apa badan ni? Esok naik lagi kot. erkk..

Dulu hidup aku penuh dengan planning. Sekarang ni carefree gila sebab aku belajar hidup terlalu planning susah jugak. So sekarang memang kalau nak ajak keluar, last minit pun takpa. hua hua

I have a thing for Irish, dark, brood guys. Read: Eddie Cahill and Gerard Butler

Eddie Cahill - Love his eyes matches with his dark brooding eyebrows, hair. haha

Here's another one, Gerard Butler.

Some people call hip hop is quite merepek and don't suit girl's personality, but I love hip hop. I appreciate good music, good lyrics and that can relate to my life and surroundings. Don't stereotype yaw. =)

Satu kehendak yang dah menjadi keperluan: My car. My phone. My laptop.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Beautiful Serenity

Sometimes when life gets tough

When everyone's against you

Everything you do just doesn't seem right

people raise their voice on you

Even when you didn't do anything


You feel small

and the world seems so much bigger than you

sometimes negativity just fills your head

when you count on people

but they can't be count on

when everything just ruin
and people take advantage on you

You just couldn't do anything

all you need is one thing

an escape

in that time, you realize you can only do this

listen to music

turn it up so high you can't hear any sound

just the music

and your thought.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Book Worm?

I love reading books you see, all sorts of genre. Romance, comedy, chick-flit, thriller, and yadayadayada. I've a small library of my own, pretty proud to have one too. Haha.. Tak besar mane ah but the shelf is full of it. Dulu ingat lagi every months mesti beli one or two books. Sampai budak-budak kelas pun tau, and cakap, "Malina tok eh, tiap-tiap hari pembulaknya buku lain2." Maksudnya tiap2 hari I tukar-tukar buku. Hahaha... So! Among all those books I have read, these are my top 5:


1. Just Friends by Robyn Sisman

Robyn Sisman is one of my favourite writer because almost all her stories are made with ease, romantic and have simple-but-keep-our-fantasy-runs endings. Just friends tells the story of two best friends, Jack and Freya, have been friends for over ten years, who know each other far too well. They have their differences, and those differences recently reach boiling point when a sudden incident pushes Freya to move in with Jack. They keep on arguing with each other and blah blah blah, I can't really remember the plot. After all I've had this book since 2007 and read it twice cuz it's just so good. What I remember is the conflict gotten bigger, since it has something to do with Jack sleeping with Freya's sister. I won't tell you any endings here cause this is not the synopsis. Haha.. But this is a really good read and I just love the chemistry and how their friendship goes to realizing that they need each other.


2. Violets Are Blue by James Patterson; a sequel of "Roses Are Red"

I still remember when I borrowed the first sequel, "Roses are Red" by the same author from library, I just can't wait for Violets are Blue to come out. Sampai carik kat internet u'olz and follow the author at his website to see whether the book as come out or not. Months after that, May 2006 I bought this one. The first one are just too delicious, I just can't miss the second. This book is not romantic book, if you have misunderstood the title. It is a story about this one detective, Alex Cross, who are pushed into following orders by a Mastermind of serial murdering in his town. I swear, this book is so F'ing good, it should be made as movie. The plots are unpredictable, giving me the thrill all the time, and the whole situation where he try to solve the murder, Patterson really describes it best. Even the ending buat kita tak senang duduk sebab terlalu unpredictable. Gila syok wo buku ni!


3. Summer In The City by Robyn Sisman

Another book by Sisman, this story is simple, sweet, and romantic. And! This book also gives me the insides world of advertising company as the main characters, Lloyd Rockwell and Suze Wilding are the copywriters in two different advertising firm. You see, the girl is from London and the guy is from New York. And when their firm sponsors a job swap, having them trade apartments and jobs for the summer, they find themselves living each other's lives. Suze is a commitment phobic and Lloyd is settling down with his girlfriend But when Suze discovers a ploy at work to get Lloyd fired, the two begin communicating long-distance, and from there, you wonder, how two people who never meet, can fall in love. And this story, banyak dia cerita pasal advertising and I can tell this is where minat untuk pursue in advertising comes and it was in 2005. Yes, seriously, sebab buku ni. I should thank Sisman, eh? haha


4. Prowlers series by Christopher Golden

There are 4 books in prowlers series but I only have two as I borrowed another two from the library. You can tell by now yang I ni penyinggah setia library kan? Haha.. This series are about well, the predictable stuff like werewolves. But no vampires ok. Haha. But hey, werewolves weren't the trend back in 2005 right? And I had a good time reading these. Because Golden is one of the best author in thriller and this story really is different from any other werewolves stories. Where can you get stories about two teens, one telepathic to the underworld and is the the man most wanted by the werewolves pack, because of what I cant remember, and they have one guy who can turn into werewolves on their side to help? Awesome? To me yes. hehe.. These books are where I got an idea and inspiration to make my own novel, The Key.


5. The Party Room series by Morgan Burke



As far as I remembered, I think these books got me hooked on reading more serious books after that. Before that I just read simple books, yang tak heavy. But after reading how awesome this thriller books are, I started reading serious, heavy novels. Ceritanya simple, thriller pasal pembunuhan kawan seorang perempuan ni, Kirsten. Throughout the 3 books, we never knew who the killer was, and she keeps on pursuing the killer, with the help of a few friends. But her friends one by one was killed including her boyfriend and her own life was in danger too. So yeah, ada la cara dia sendiri utk find out killer tu sapa kan and cerita ni seriously boleh buat you rasa takut jugak. A lot of people dah pinjam buku2 ni, and semua cakap terbaik gila. I knew I wasn't the only one. :)

So yeah itu jelah yang nak di share. Kalau rasa nak pinjam buku2 ni, bgtau jelah ye. Buku-buku lama ni semua tersimpan je dalam bookshelf tu, some books I even read twice, thrice, berkali-kali sebab best sangat. Tapi buku adalah harata yang I sayang so smpai sekarang buku-buku tu semua still in good condition. Ada yang nampak masih baru lagi. Tapi sayang sejak masuk U, kurang sikit tabiat membaca ni. Tak tau kenapa, maybe sebab xde masa kot. So cuti panjang ni, I'm trying to get my book worm self up again, and now still reading "Suspicion" from The Private Series by Kate Brian.

I Love Books! <3

Lima Blog

Todaayyy Imma share witchu me top 5 favs of Everything yuhh... Ok quite the stupid accent. Ni disebabkan duduk dirumah, membatu tak buat apa, so Im just using my spare time looking for something to do yeah. So here is it. Just wanna share it here & gives my opinions abt these stufffsss............

Top 5 Favourite Sites / Blogs

Sites-sites and blogs semua ni memang tempat aku bertenggek, menyinggah, menjenguk, lepak dan sbgainya bila dah boring kat rumah. Yealah kan, xkan kau nak duk dpn laptop mengadap Facebook, twitter, youtube spnjang hari je kan. haaa ni dia semua sites yang wajib disinggah. :)


This girl is hilarious. I love reading her blog. I love her style. I love her bubbly personality. She even looks like one of my best friends. hahaha... Dia ni, I just adore her. Dia tak kesah orang nak ckp apa pasal dia, but she is just positive the whole time. Well, I don't know her, she probably have her 'days' but I can tell that she go through her live to the fullest and that is why I adore her. Her post are always something that we can talk or think about because she loves to share any info she might find interesting.



Haaaaa blog ni adalah blogger Sarawak. Namanya Azahari Suria.Jgn korang taktau ada blogger hebat kt sarawak. Blog dia ni, kalau korang paham la kan bahasa-bahasa dia gunakan, memang I can guarantee you, you will laugh all day. Penah skali I was reading his blog dari midnight, and tup tup, jam dah pukul 3.40am. Serious sakit perut, sakit pipi tergelak2 baca blog dia ni. Setiap entry tak boring. But he is using pure srwk language. And oh yeah, Ngerepak, is actually not caring in definition, it is merepek/membebel. So what he's trying to say there is dia membebel because he cares. hahaha... What I love about his blog is banyak gila info dia share kt sini. Kadang2 soal hati, cinta, and he seems to be sensitive about girl's feelings as his post are always in the middle, no taking sides. Plus he likes to talk about certain topics and go deep with it. Serious so entertaining! Hehe..Wish I could meet him in person though, since my friend knew hi
m. But whatever... hahaha...




Ini tumblr Melissa Maureen, ingat lagi pelakon Gol & Gincu ni? Yeah, the wife of Malique; songwriter, rapper, artist, that I salute.

Melissa and her princess, Inca medina

I like to go to her tumblr bukan sebab nak tgk progress or kehidupan seorang artis, after all Melissa pun tak banyak bunyi kan. But it is because of her creativity, her motherhood, her knowledge in craft, arts and literature, and the info she shared in her tumblr. I adore her from the bottom of my heart. From her tumblr, I found that she loves to DIY things for her daughter, Inca Medina. Such as her tops become Inca's cardigan, bracelet made out of stuff you can find in the house and so much more. Isn't that just so sweet? :)




Actually I visit this blog because of her style and fashion. I love looking at her pictures. This girl is Indonesian and when she pose with all her hijabi's friends, you cannot help but drools. hehehe.. Yes, even myself drool. But mostly I drool because of her style. Haha! Just check her blog out, she took awesome pictures as well as she is a photographer. Double drool! :D





I LOVE THESE CUTE TOOF! The character are called Ickle and Lardee. There are always stories about these two tooth. It is actually just pictures of these small things, dihiaskan dan di animate kan dengan gaya2 tertentu, terjadinya sebuah cerita. Ah, I can't even describe the cuteness of these two fellas. Check it out yourself okay! :D

Look how cute Ickle and Lardee are! Oh, they are in trouble alright and have to clean the mess.


Ohhh this doesnt end here. Muahahaha.. I'm gonna post some more of my top 5 things. Don't blame me, I'm super bored. *evil laugh*

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

LMFAO

It feels different. But in a good way.

<3

Stay true.


Tuesday, June 21, 2011

At The Kitchen


Experiment #1

Many of you may already heard of Macaroons right? Since it is quite expensive in the market and being in Kuching, it doesn't give me any pr
ivilege either to get one easily. So I decided to mak
e it myself. *Senyum bangga*.


This is a sample picture. Errr I didn't make these. haha

After a lot of research (tak la banyak mana pun..hehe) of the recipe, comparison here and there, watched a few videos of how they make it, and read all the tips and stuff, I'm ready to make my own experiment #1. You see, first try neh mmg tak expect la jadi perfect terus. Maybe akan jadi tak cantik, buruk atau worst, tak menjadi langsung smpai tak bleh makan. haha.. Harap2 tak jadi la kan.

The ingredients are pretty easy actually. Let me share mine here:

Ingredients

  1. 175g icing sugar
  2. 125g ground almonds (Almond powder)
  3. 3 large free-range egg whites
  4. 75g caster sugar

For the filling

  1. 150g butter, softened
  2. 75g icing sugar
For the fillings, fyi, can be made as cupcake's icing to
o. The easiest recipe for icing ever and the yummiest that I've ever tried. But it's up to you to do the fillings. Boleh jugak letak nutella ke, jam strawberri k
e, or make your own meringue and cream cheese then put in the middle of the macaroons. For my first experiment though, I choose to have Strawberry jam as my fillings because malas nak buat fillings btol2. haha...

As I was writing, my macaroons are actually done and disejukkan. And I found out there are a lot of error and my macaroons looked more like a colourful small pancakes than a small cookie. hahaha..

Ok, let me tell you one by one step. Be warned, this is a correct recipe, but a lot of chef out there said that don't expect too much for you to succeed on the first try. Because even though the ingredients are so easy, the technique and environme
nt however are the essential part.

1st Tips: Don't bake on a humid and hot day. I did, and look at how it turned out. Why you may ask? Because kita guna telur putih kan, telur putih apabila di-whisked, it is mostly made by air. If it is surrounded by humid air, our mixture yg ada telur td akan jadi separate dgn mixture dia. So tak menjadi. Nak elakkan dia seperate, sila sentiasa whisk kan telur anda ya. haha..Aku ni cakap mcm expert plak kan. haha

2nd tips: Guna telur yg dah di-room temperature kan. Jgn keluar dr peti ais terus guna. Sblm baking tu, sediakan telur tu kt luar 2-3 jam dulu. Lagi bagus kalau ditinggalkan sehari. Why? Google sendiri. hahaha..boleh plak kan... Aku pun kurang pasti knapa, expert ckp cmtu buat jela, ye dok?

3rd tips: Sediakan semua bahan2 sblm mula. Nanti kecoh satu dapur, tumpah sana sini. haha.. Why? Sebab buat benda ni perlu cepat. You have to mind your telur, your mixture and stuff so that dia xkan separate ke ape ke,so kena cepat.

  • Mula2, pre-heat the oven to 160 C. Campurkan almond powder and icing sugar dlm satu mangkuk.
  • In a separate bowl, whisk the egg whites with a pinch of salt to soft peaks, then gradually whisk in the caster sugar until thick and glossy. Tgk gambo kt bwh, mcm tu la ghupe dia.


  • Ok part ni susah sikit. Sebab after I did it, dia mengeras, bukannya lagi lembut. -.- Since you guys nak buat colourful kan? So that telur + gula mixture td, separate kan into a few bowls, seberapa banyak colour you nak la. I make 2 colors, pink & purple. I found out that all recipe out there dia buat yg xde kaler so telur dia sikit bila dah di separate kan. My suggestion, yang mixture Almond + icing sugar tadi, separate jugak into berapa bowl you dah separate utk kaler td. You agak2 la tgk serbuk almond you tu bila di campur dgn telur td, cukup tak? Sebab bila I buat, dia tak cukup, dia keras nak mampus mcm biskut dah. haha.. So what I do is I add up one more egg white and a few sudu of caster sugar and whisk it again.
  • Ok chop! Sebelum masukkan 2 mixture tadi, nak ingatkan, jgn campur terus mendadak. Letak slowly setengah dulu then FOLD it. Bukan mix it. Paham? tak? Ce try tgk video recipe ni, technique dia. Actually macam2 resipe boleh buat, tp yg penting technique, so you have to see it with your eyes jugak.
Ini video recipe buat macaroons. You can try his way too, but tgk la technique dia. I learn from him. Sorry can't upload it here, internet sucks. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkvjorgPnvY

  • The final batter should be the colour of pale ivory (if you haven't coloured it) and smooth and thick but flowing (dia macam magma,yg gunung berapi tu..). A ribbon of batter dropped from a spoon onto the top of the remaining batter should take about 30 seconds to disappear. Again, please refer to video.


  • Line 2 baking sheets with baking paper. Pipe small rounds of the macaroon mixture, about 3cm across, onto the baking sheets. Give the baking sheets a sharp tap on the work surface to ensure a good ‘foot’. Leave to stand at room temperature for 10-15 minutes to form a slight skin. This is important – you should be able to touch them lightly without any mixture sticking to your finger. Bake for 15 minutes. Remove from the oven and cool.

I am no expert but this is how I make these. It turn out okay, but the "feet" just overflow and frilly. Means dia terkeluar. So i found that the solution is to just let the piped batter rest for awhile before putting in into the oven, maybe around 1-2 hours instead of 15 mins.
Baking this takes time, so be patient, do it slowly and selamat mencuba! Hehehe... Oh, I suggest find a better recipe than mine here. Do some research and tips first. Here I just lay out my opinion and my way.

Here's some website that helped me out and where I took the pictures. haha



ENJOY!

p/s: I tak sempat nak amik gmbr my own macaroons sbb habis dimakan. wawawa~ Plus tak cantik mana pun anyway. hehe

Saturday, June 18, 2011

The Big 21


On 17th June mark the date I turn 21. From what people said another benchmark of being an adult. The question is, do I feel like an adult? Do I act like an adult? Am I an adult?

I spent my day time with my available friends. I said available cuz some of them couldn't come because of work, family problems & etc. But it was worth
it even it was only the three of us. Thanks Syidah & Shahida :) . Then in the middle of our late lunch, Hadi decided to join us. It was sweet of him to come at the last minute eventhough it was only to return something of mine. Thanks kitak :). Then at night I had dinner and movie (The Green Lantern) with my family. Bumped into some of my guy friends, the world is too small. We even ended up in the same movie theatre, haha.

Being 21...hummm lets see. You can vote. You can do most of the legal contract yourself without parental guidance. You can do most of illegal stuff too. haha...like Im gonna do that. Today I reflected myself of being who i am today. I am really p
roud of myself for being where I stand now and here. A lot of obstacles have I faced till today and I survived it through tears, laughter, phone-calling, self-assurance, and most importantly respect to self and be positive. Many times when I just dont have the energy to be positive and everything turn upside down for me. And many times have I failed & made mistakes, but I just got back up on my feet and walk again. It took courage, positivity, and self-respect. I may say sorry too much when it is not needed or people just dont deserve it, I may put people first in line of happiness instead of myself, I may hurt people's feelings with the way I talk or express myself sometimes, but all those weaknesses are the greatest power in each one of us. And this realization comes from the movie the Green Lantern I just watched. Yeah, the review was so-so for critics but it is so near to me, I can feel and see all the hi
dden morals. There's a lot more I learned from that movie actually but I wont bore this entry with it. Go watch it and you'll know what I mean. :)

Anyway, all I'm saying is that I go through a lot already throughout my years, and I got a lot more to learn. People may want to judge me, or they don't, its up to them. I decided to live my life care-free, un-planned, and full of positive, but yeah, of course there are times when I need to care, and plan things out to be more careful, and sometimes just be negative. Cut me some slack, I'm just human who make thousands of sins and mist
akes. But I'll try my best to be the best for myself, live in the moment to be happy. Not that I want to boast but I do feel it now. The positives of things take control of me and it can say that I've never been better. Alongside with all those who loves me, and I love them too, those new people, those who hates me who makes me stronger, I thank you.

For all it's worth, Alhamdulillah I'm still breathing, I can still smile and enjoy the air, the good food and the voices from whom I love. Thank You Allah, for You, the only One who can make it all true. :)


I wish I could take a picture of all my friends in this kind of joy <3

P/s: Thank you mom, for the inheritance ring. <3

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Bila Qarma beraksi

I don't know if it's my unlucky time or what. But I've paid twice the burden I gave you. I understand now how it feels. I guess Qarma really is a bitch to me. I'm sorry if this is how you felt before. But life goes on, and I can only tawakkal and redha for what had happened. Yes, I met a few guys, made me fall for them, and crushed me with the fact that they have girlfriend and still tried to deny everything. Thank you Qarma for showing me early before I fall more deeply. But I'm f'ed up already and will try to change how I see things for good from now, especially about boys.

For you F. Sorry. And can we just forget what happenned before and jangan dendam2 already? I value our friendship so much. :\

For you A. Fuck you. Sorry.

For you H. Can we just be friends? I know we like each other's company & I'm cool with everything anyway, you're the one yg gelabah nk deny2. haha..lek la der. I've been through this a lot already. :)

All I'm saying is for all the dudes out there. If you like the girl, let her know. If you just intended to just hit on her, let her know that too. If not, she might do something crazy, like fall for you. If not, you can always be FRIENDS dude. Girls are not your toys or your spare part or whatever your intentions are. Be cool. Be mature. Girls respect you for being honest. :)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Jangan pernah kecewakan Rasulullah

Benda ni aku amik from http://iniwootwoot.com/jangankecewakanrasulullah/ . I found it really interesting and sgt menyentuh jiwa. Happy Reading, especially to all girls out there. :)

“Hawa…Tahukah kau, bahawa dahulu kala,

hidupmu ibarat ‘anjing peliharaan’ orang-orang zalim,

dirimu dihina, disakiti, dan dinodai. Tetapi,

tatkala lahirnya seorang insan, yang bernama…

Muhammad bin Abdullah.

Hidupmu segala-galanya berubah,

dari dihina, kau dimuliakan,

dari disakiti, kau dilindungi,

dari dinodai, kau dipelihara.

Tahukah kau, betapa sakit dan pedihnya perjuangan…

insan ini untuk memuliakanmu?. Sehinggakan,

jika kau mengumpulkan seluruh alam semesta ini,

untuk membayar pengorbanan insan ini, ianya sama sekali tidak mencukupi.

Bahkan, bukanlah bayaran yang dituntut insan ini,

Cuma, satu sahaja tuntutannya. Apakah tuntutan itu?.

ialah, dengan kau melaksanakan semua perintahNya tanpa alasan sedikitpun,

jika dia menyuruhmu menutup aurat, maka tutuplah,

jika dia menyuruhmu peliharalah kemaluan, maka peliharalah.

Jika, kesemua ini kau tidak mampu dan enggan melaksanakan,

sesungguhnya kau telah menzalimi insan yang bernama Muhammad bin Abdullah!.”

*hendak seribu usaha, tak hendak seribu alasan.