You have made my life wonderful, colorful and beautiful...
After you came into my life, you added the chapter in my story...
You open my eyes about everything...how wonderful music is...how the world evolves around succesful people...how we should appreciate other's pengorbanan...how we should love our parents and balas jasa diorg seadanya...
I never could have dream how bahagia my life is that time.
Hidup I penuh bermakna dgn you ada disisi. You bagi I lebih banyak berfikir about the world, the people around me and everything...
I thought I could never found someone that have a lot in common with me, with the way we think, our opinion about some things or music or anything for that matter....even though we do have differences, but I take that differences as an experience for me to get to know you better, and to get other reviews than mine...and so do you I guess.
You love me the way I am...You share about your life to me...You have your own cute way in expressing things or buat muka at anything...You don't even care how I look whether messy or pretty....You are really gentle with girls, especially me, couldn't hurt me even once....You are passionate at things you love the most...You know how to layan me at certain times, eventhough you say you are not a gentleman, you are...And for all of this and much more, I appreciate everything that you've done...and I love you for that.
And I did everything for you to do just that...to show that I love you too, I appreciate everything you did.
Even though you have weaknesses, things that Idon't like you to do... but if anyone asked me right now what you hated the most about him? I would say I hated him because he makes me fall in love with him. Because all those weaknesses that he have, just makes him...as himself...the way I know him..the way I like him...the way I love that I him.
Somehow fate has brought us apart, and I redha dgn ketentuan itu. You hurt me inside, you break my heart apart...You took my heart and shred it into pieces...but why would you want to step on it and rub it to my face?
I have accomplish a lot in my life, I made myself as who I am today...don't you say I am just depending on others to live...I am a strong girl, I know when I fall down, I have to get up once more and started running again.
What do you really want in your life? What do you really want? Well, I know what I want in life. And I will accomplish it. To forward in my lifelong dream wouold be a dream come true...and being with you just the added bonus. I am totally not using anyone to fulfill my dream. I am standing on my own, I just have to win the 'awards' along the way to the top. Whatever the awards may be (have a lot of best friends, loving boyfriend, have my own car, being rich).
Would you do the same? I want you to be happy my dear. I don't want you to be stuck in the middle, not knowing what to do next, getting yourself influenced by your messed up friends (yes, they are mostly messed up, sorry...) and couldn't live your dreams. You have a great potential in your life, you dream big, and that's what I like you the most. I love hearing all your dreams and ambition...because it fired up the passion in me too to be succesful in life. Thank you for that.
You know what, seeing you being happy, getting up after you fall down, ignoring other obstacles that is unneccessary, would make me be a much happier person too.
Yeah, I may be not the one who understand you the most...I may not be the person who you like the most at this moment. But it's the same for us too...You said I didn't look at the way you live at other places, and it is the same as me. You didn't look the way I live with others yet... Yeah, I guess we both didn't take the real time to understand each other....and that is okay for me.
The thing about you are the reasons of everything in my life. Yes, before this and after that too. Right now, right here...If I make one decision, it is because of you. If I stay...it is because of you. If I leave, it is also because of you my dear. I am afraid I would get hurt again. That's why the reasons become like that.
Well....
I just hope that you will get what you want in life and have a happy wonderful life...
Sincerely,
Determined
