Doa yang ku amalkan. InsyaAllah, aku hanya mampu berserah kepadanya. =)
Monday, May 23, 2011
I accepted it. I expect there are more to comes but I've been through this before. All I can do is sit back and relax. Just be happy with what I got now. Be patience is all I need cause patience is virtue, tinggi maqamnya. :) The reaction I got was more than good and I am proud of myself for growing like this. I hope this stays, and I hope I can handle much worst thing in the future, similar but better than this. I just want to be happy. And to be happy I just have to free my mind from worries and hatred, and be positive about everything. And oh yeah, live simply, give more and expect less. Patience is all you need right now Malin, you can do this, and the power of mind is so powerful, you know positive thoughts can control you better. And remember, Allah SWT might have a bigger and better plan for you. :)
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Sorry for the foul word.
When a guy identifies a guy as bro/brader/brotha/brah it sounds super normal.
When a girl identifies a girl as bros, it also sounds normal as it sounds like they're close.
When a girl identifies a guy as bros, it sounds normal as the guy is obviously a bro.
But when a guy identifies a girl as bros, it offends me.
Sorry but its true.
Dude, I know you're trying to be cool and all but that word just doesn't key in with my brain because I am as girl as I can be.
If I acted like one of the boys then I'd understand.
Or do you want me to call you sis? Or sistaaahh?
All I want to say is,
I'm not your bro, you hoe. (and that refer to the males)
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I know that you feel the same way.
You know that I feel the same way too.
I know you know that I know you feel the same way.
And you know I know that you know I feel the same way too.
The next morning I feel trapped. Cause I know after this, our times together will not be the same again as I am going to be trapped in an Island where I can't get out. As so my times with the usuals peeps who I hang out with. It's just the next day and I already missed all those things. I know after this no one will stay the same. So as myself. But I hope our friendships will stay the same. The goodbyes makes it really hard, I almost cried. So don't say goodbye, say see you again because that will make it easier. :)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
I decided to ignore these feelings.
As ignoring is what I could do.
I don't want more but I don't want less.
But there was nothing I could do anyway.
It will happen if God want it to happen.
I just have to sit back, relax, smile, and tawakkal. :)
Because I know God have a better plan for me. This is just a distraction in the mean time.
And about that other thing, If I was wrong, God will know what to do, and karma will get to me.
But I know things come and and go. Plus I feel much better, yet a bit disturbed because it's still new.
But I'll get over it.
Just, tawakkal. :)
Sunday, May 1, 2011
I've drafted this entry since the date below and now I think I should just post it.haha
30th April, aku finally habis Diploma in Communication and Media Studies. Org ckp, DAH GRAD DAH WOOII!! hahaha!
Lepas ni nak pg ke alam degree pulak kat Shah Alam, which I know would be much harder, orang2 nya berlainan, berkemungkinan culture shock sikit dan living cost yg tinggi.
Esok aku nak gerak Shah Alam dah, tinggalkan bumi Melaka ni. Banyak benda/tempat yang aku akan rindui. Tempat like DP, MP, Pantai Puteri, Klebang, Pengkalan Balak, Portugese Settlement, Jonker, Alor Gajah, Masjid Tanah, Kedai2 makan yg aku dah jd regular customer, tempat2 lepak, mamak, Pak Putra, dan segala liku2 jalan yang tak rata kat Melaka ni. Haha
Setakat ni terlalu byk memori yang aku akan ingat smpai mati kat tempat2 yg 'bersejarah' bg aku, tak kira la sejarah kecik ke, besar ke, kalau dah memori tu buat aku sedih nak tinggalkan tpt ni, then it means a lot to me. That place in front of McD Dp, That MCD Melaka Mall tpt lepak, Pengkalan Balak on that 'day', Pantai Puteri where the car accident happenned and all those overnights, and sooo much more.
Even though there are times that I'd rather lupakan terus sbb ianya satu pengalaman buruk / memalukan / pedih / sedih, tetapi all those experiences have made who I am today, a stronger person inside out. Certain things kita ambik sebagai tauladan, jangan buat lagi, certain things pulak maybe kita jadikan satu tonggak untuk maju kedepan. Walaupun kadang2 I always find myself repeating the same mistakes, but maybe ada hikmah disebalik kejadian. Tawakal sahaja, kerna kita hanya mampu merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan. :)
Jadi disini sy ingin merakamkan sekalung tahniah dan terima kasih kepada semua orang yang pernah menolong saya, menemani saya, menjadi kawan saya, memahami saya, mendengar leteran dan kemerepekan saya, menasihati saya, berada di sisi saya bila susah, berada disisi saya bila senang, yang sentiasa berada disisi saya tak kira perubahan ditelan tahun dan zaman, dan sesiapa yang sentiasa setia mengharungi cabaran bersama saya. (Ignore the skema of the ayat)
Kita akan cuti 4 bulan, I might, and I might not see you guys again time degree nnt. And I know I will miss some of you guys, miss lepak with you guys and miss crying and laughing with you guys.
You know who you are, and I love you. <3