I had to do it

I didn't mean to hurt you.

But I did.

I didn't mean to hurt myself.

But it is at the edge of breaking.

I did all those things before this,

all those horrible things you said,

that makes me seem careless,

all to see and prove what I have disliked.

And small matter comes to worst.

I can't contain this.

So I have to burst it out.

One minute we're the lovebirds,

another just a lonely sparrow.

I don't want to lie,

nor wanted to deceive.

But I just had to do it,

to protect myself from all that I have perceived.

I may not know what I want yet out of this life,

but I can tell you I am sure something,

perhaps someone,

could bring that out for me.

I don't want to hope too much.

After all, I'm still young,

longed to feel the adventure ahead.

You could give a very deep thought on why I did this,

maybe you wouldn't understand.

I might regret this someday,

I know.

Probably qarma will get around and say hi,

but all is well when I am ready to set my own wings and fly,

to my own pathway.

So I just had to do it.

I see no other choice,

but

Goodbye.