Bila Qarma beraksi

I don't know if it's my unlucky time or what. But I've paid twice the burden I gave you. I understand now how it feels. I guess Qarma really is a bitch to me. I'm sorry if this is how you felt before. But life goes on, and I can only tawakkal and redha for what had happened. Yes, I met a few guys, made me fall for them, and crushed me with the fact that they have girlfriend and still tried to deny everything. Thank you Qarma for showing me early before I fall more deeply. But I'm f'ed up already and will try to change how I see things for good from now, especially about boys.

For you F. Sorry. And can we just forget what happenned before and jangan dendam2 already? I value our friendship so much. :\

For you A. Fuck you. Sorry.

For you H. Can we just be friends? I know we like each other's company & I'm cool with everything anyway, you're the one yg gelabah nk deny2. haha..lek la der. I've been through this a lot already. :)

All I'm saying is for all the dudes out there. If you like the girl, let her know. If you just intended to just hit on her, let her know that too. If not, she might do something crazy, like fall for you. If not, you can always be FRIENDS dude. Girls are not your toys or your spare part or whatever your intentions are. Be cool. Be mature. Girls respect you for being honest. :)

Jangan pernah kecewakan Rasulullah

Benda ni aku amik from http://iniwootwoot.com/jangankecewakanrasulullah/ . I found it really interesting and sgt menyentuh jiwa. Happy Reading, especially to all girls out there. :)

“Hawa…Tahukah kau, bahawa dahulu kala,

hidupmu ibarat ‘anjing peliharaan’ orang-orang zalim,

dirimu dihina, disakiti, dan dinodai. Tetapi,

tatkala lahirnya seorang insan, yang bernama…

Muhammad bin Abdullah.

Hidupmu segala-galanya berubah,

dari dihina, kau dimuliakan,

dari disakiti, kau dilindungi,

dari dinodai, kau dipelihara.

Tahukah kau, betapa sakit dan pedihnya perjuangan…

insan ini untuk memuliakanmu?. Sehinggakan,

jika kau mengumpulkan seluruh alam semesta ini,

untuk membayar pengorbanan insan ini, ianya sama sekali tidak mencukupi.

Bahkan, bukanlah bayaran yang dituntut insan ini,

Cuma, satu sahaja tuntutannya. Apakah tuntutan itu?.

ialah, dengan kau melaksanakan semua perintahNya tanpa alasan sedikitpun,

jika dia menyuruhmu menutup aurat, maka tutuplah,

jika dia menyuruhmu peliharalah kemaluan, maka peliharalah.

Jika, kesemua ini kau tidak mampu dan enggan melaksanakan,

sesungguhnya kau telah menzalimi insan yang bernama Muhammad bin Abdullah!.”

*hendak seribu usaha, tak hendak seribu alasan.

Serangkap Doa

Doa yang ku amalkan. InsyaAllah, aku hanya mampu berserah kepadanya. =)

Patience is Virtue

I accepted it. I expect there are more to comes but I've been through this before. All I can do is sit back and relax. Just be happy with what I got now. Be patience is all I need cause patience is virtue, tinggi maqamnya. :) The reaction I got was more than good and I am proud of myself for growing like this. I hope this stays, and I hope I can handle much worst thing in the future, similar but better than this. I just want to be happy. And to be happy I just have to free my mind from worries and hatred, and be positive about everything. And oh yeah, live simply, give more and expect less. Patience is all you need right now Malin, you can do this, and the power of mind is so powerful, you know positive thoughts can control you better. And remember, Allah SWT might have a bigger and better plan for you. :)

Bros & Sis, Hoes & Dicks

Sorry for the foul word.

When a guy identifies a guy as bro/brader/brotha/brah it sounds super normal.

When a girl identifies a girl as bros, it also sounds normal as it sounds like they're close.

When a girl identifies a guy as bros, it sounds normal as the guy is obviously a bro.

But when a guy identifies a girl as bros, it offends me.

Sorry but its true.

Dude, I know you're trying to be cool and all but that word just doesn't key in with my brain because I am as girl as I can be.

If I acted like one of the boys then I'd understand.

Or do you want me to call you sis? Or sistaaahh?

All I want to say is,

I'm not your bro, you hoe. (and that refer to the males)

=)

I know that you feel the same way.

You know that I feel the same way too.

I know you know that I know you feel the same way.

And you know I know that you know I feel the same way too.

-____-"

The next morning I feel trapped. Cause I know after this, our times together will not be the same again as I am going to be trapped in an Island where I can't get out. As so my times with the usuals peeps who I hang out with. It's just the next day and I already missed all those things. I know after this no one will stay the same. So as myself. But I hope our friendships will stay the same. The goodbyes makes it really hard, I almost cried. So don't say goodbye, say see you again because that will make it easier. :)

Decided

I decided to ignore these feelings.

As ignoring is what I could do.

I don't want more but I don't want less.

But there was nothing I could do anyway.

It will happen if God want it to happen.

I just have to sit back, relax, smile, and tawakkal. :)

Because I know God have a better plan for me. This is just a distraction in the mean time.

And about that other thing, If I was wrong, God will know what to do, and karma will get to me.

But I know things come and and go. Plus I feel much better, yet a bit disturbed because it's still new.

But I'll get over it.

Just, tawakkal. :)