Hari ni, aku tetiba terfikir sesuatu apabila sedang membuat kerja economics ku. Haha..xtau la mana dpt idea tu tp mungkin setelah mendgr nasihat mak aku yg bernas lg berkesan, benda ni buat aku terfikir sejenak dan alangkah bgusnya kalau aku dpt buat benda ni....
Aku teringin untuk mengerjakan UMRAH.
Kalau boleh haji sekali tp nak tunggu cycle next haji lama pulak. Bapak ku skrg kat Kedah, settle hal2 kerja dia. Apa kena mengena dgn keja bpk ku dgn umrah? Kami berdoa agar dia pulang dgn keuntungan besar yg membolehkan kami pergi ke umrah tahun ini. InsyaAllah, jika Tuhan murahkan rezeki kami, dia akan berikan. Kami tidak terlalu mengharap, tetapi aku teringin sangat nak menatap Kaabah tu dpn mata ku, sembahyang di depan kiblat utk seluruh muslim, menghayati segalanya yang ada di sana serta beribadah kepada Nya dan yang pasti berdoa kepada Nya, meminta ampun atas dosa2 besarku yg aku sendiri jijik bila memikirkannya serta meminta keterangan hati dan jiwa dan kesejahteraan dan kesihatan hidup.
Aku pernah dah byk kali gak ar, bila aku sembahyang, aku berdoa mintak ampun dosa2 ku, aku tak xtau kenapa aku menangis terus teresak2...Bila terfikir psl dosa yg aku pernah buat, kat mak bpk, kat kwn2, kt sesape la...Ya Allah...aku sgt sedih. Sampai basah telekung dgn hingus dan air mataku.hahaha..nsb baik hingus bkn najis, klo x lama da terbatal.haha... Dalam dunia ni, cuma 3 things yg boleh buat aku menangis. Satunya adalah Allah. Skrg alhamdulillah aku dah boleh smkin meningkatkan prestasi smbhyang aku, jarang tinggalkan, dpt menhayati dan khusyuk...tp aku still rasa x ckup. Kadang2 timbul perasaan malu dan rendah diri bila 'berhadapan' dgn Tuhan. Sembahyang pun x ckup, rasa malu sgt nk berdoa. Tp doa itu senjata. Aku tak pernah putus asa berdoa. Kdg2 doa ku di makbulkan, kdg2 x, kaku bersabar jela. Allah tahu our past present future. Jadi aku berserah kepadanya.
Speaking of berserah, aku baru belajar satu doa ni yg di ajr mak aku la. Sgt berguna. Ianya petikan dr surah al-Baqarah klau x silap. Baik aku kongsi kt sni..mmg baik sgt klau smua org boleh bljr kan?
Hasbi Allah hula illa ha illa huwa Alaihi tawakal tua hua rabbul arsyil azim.
Maksudnya xbrapa igt spnuhnya tp yg pasti doa ini berkaitan Kita berserah sepenuhnya kpd Allah yg satu. Jika kit adlm kesusahan, sesat, sedih, ataupun takut, bacalah doa ini. Kerana kita berserah kpd Allah yg apa yg terjadi lepas ini adalah ketentuan Allah.
Aku dah amalkan doa ini 7 kali siang, 7 kali mlm. Plg baik skali lps smbhyg Subuh utk merangkumi siang hari kita dan lepas smyg maghrib utk merangkumi malam hari kita. Jadi setiap jam dan setiap hari kita berserah kpd Allah. Setelaj aku amalkan benda ni, aku rasa tenang sgt bila aku rasa ssh hati atau nervous. Bila aku sesat dan xnampak jln, dan bca ayt ni, aku mula nmpk jln, terang benderang. Apa yg kita harus buat adalah make the best out of each day, and at the same time, berserahlah kepada Nya. Jika hari ini xbgus, esok msh ada lg.
InsyaAllah.....jika rezeki ku smpai dan diriku telah bersedia, aku nak pg mengerjakan umrah dulu dan harap2 aku balik dengan hati yg tenang dan bersih.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
New Resolution
Datangnya New Year 2010, aku nak berckp pasal azam baru plak.
I look back and cuba igt apa azam aku yg lama utk 2009....Banyak gak ar, dan cuma stgh je yg dpt di accomplish..hehe
Antaranya ialah menjadi lebh rajin dan belajar bersungguh2... (utk sem 2 jela..msuk sem 3 da kcundang sket..xtau nape.haha)
Well, sbnrnya xbrapa nk igt apa azam ku. Ada satu tu adalah menyimpan duit. Yeah, aku berjaya menyimpan sampai RM150 sampai lah roommate aku yg sorg ni jenis tangan panjang..Di curik nya skit demi sedikit. Smpai tinggal brapa ringgit je...azam nk simpan duit trus xde mood, aku blnja kan duit tu utk makan je. Bengong tol lah time tu...
Ok, ini adalah antara azam terbaruku kerana aku yakin 2010 memberi makna yg mendalam buatku dan everything will be different this time.
1. Cukupkan waktu Sembahyang.
- Walaupun tgh kluar tgk wayang ke ape ke, klau xsmpat pg surau, Qada' kan. Haih, kita kena jaga amalan akhirat kita dulu sblm jaga amalan duniawi. Sbb apa2 hal or mslh dtg, kita menghadap tuhan jgk...xmalu ke klau ade mslh sebuk je nk minx macam2 kt Tuhan tp benda yg Tuhan sruh buat, xnak buat? Uih, lambat doa nak smpai cmtu.huhuhu
2. Simpan Duit
- Seorang kawan telah menyedarkan aku dlm hal pentingnya menyimpan duit. (Terima kasih awak! You know who u are :)) Aku nak cuba lg, kali ni, at the same time cuba jgn membazir. Kluar dgn keta tu, biar la berpada2...jgn asik kuar je..xpun guna keta kawan.hahahha....brg2 pun jgn sesuka hati je beli. Makan jugak kena jaga supaya jgn trlalu membazir ats wang yg besar. Spt: Mkn kt nandos, kenny rogers dn sbgnya...hahahha... Harap2 kali ni xde sape yg menghalang aku nak simpan duit. Da ckup seratus lebih, simpan jela dlm bank..jgn asik simpan dlm loker nnt kena curik! haha...
3. Rahsia
Ini rahsia. Terima kasih...
4. Dapatkan laptop baru
- Padahal dulu mak dah janji nk blikan yg baru...da siap2 pkirkan ape nk bli skali jadual bz sgt..mcm2 jadi..trus xsmpt.haha... mungkin blom smpai rezeki...
5. Menjaga kereta dgn baik
- Kreta Myvi tu aku paham kena jga baik2. Rezki nk dpt keta da smpai jadi aku harus memanfaatkannya. Pasni kena slalu cuci since keta tu putih. Pastu kena bersih dan harap2 xde saman dlm mahupun luar kampus. Dan plg aku berharap adlh xadanya accident. InsyaAllah.
6. Raise up my level of confident
- This will help me in everything..heheh...
7. Belajar lebih rajin, smart and focus, focus, focus!
- Aku confident kali ni dpt DL lg! perkara plg aku suka utk buat ialah membuat parents ku bangga. :)))) I want to focus on studies so that I
Well, I can't think of anymore azam....so this is it la kot....byk lg sbnrnya, kot la...but I cant remember...well, I really hope I can make it this time. And boleh capai klau x smua, at least sedikit drpd azam ku ini..hehe...Selamat berjaya kpd diriku! =)
I look back and cuba igt apa azam aku yg lama utk 2009....Banyak gak ar, dan cuma stgh je yg dpt di accomplish..hehe
Antaranya ialah menjadi lebh rajin dan belajar bersungguh2... (utk sem 2 jela..msuk sem 3 da kcundang sket..xtau nape.haha)
Well, sbnrnya xbrapa nk igt apa azam ku. Ada satu tu adalah menyimpan duit. Yeah, aku berjaya menyimpan sampai RM150 sampai lah roommate aku yg sorg ni jenis tangan panjang..Di curik nya skit demi sedikit. Smpai tinggal brapa ringgit je...azam nk simpan duit trus xde mood, aku blnja kan duit tu utk makan je. Bengong tol lah time tu...
Ok, ini adalah antara azam terbaruku kerana aku yakin 2010 memberi makna yg mendalam buatku dan everything will be different this time.
1. Cukupkan waktu Sembahyang.
- Walaupun tgh kluar tgk wayang ke ape ke, klau xsmpat pg surau, Qada' kan. Haih, kita kena jaga amalan akhirat kita dulu sblm jaga amalan duniawi. Sbb apa2 hal or mslh dtg, kita menghadap tuhan jgk...xmalu ke klau ade mslh sebuk je nk minx macam2 kt Tuhan tp benda yg Tuhan sruh buat, xnak buat? Uih, lambat doa nak smpai cmtu.huhuhu
2. Simpan Duit
- Seorang kawan telah menyedarkan aku dlm hal pentingnya menyimpan duit. (Terima kasih awak! You know who u are :)) Aku nak cuba lg, kali ni, at the same time cuba jgn membazir. Kluar dgn keta tu, biar la berpada2...jgn asik kuar je..xpun guna keta kawan.hahahha....brg2 pun jgn sesuka hati je beli. Makan jugak kena jaga supaya jgn trlalu membazir ats wang yg besar. Spt: Mkn kt nandos, kenny rogers dn sbgnya...hahahha... Harap2 kali ni xde sape yg menghalang aku nak simpan duit. Da ckup seratus lebih, simpan jela dlm bank..jgn asik simpan dlm loker nnt kena curik! haha...
3. Rahsia
Ini rahsia. Terima kasih...
4. Dapatkan laptop baru
- Padahal dulu mak dah janji nk blikan yg baru...da siap2 pkirkan ape nk bli skali jadual bz sgt..mcm2 jadi..trus xsmpt.haha... mungkin blom smpai rezeki...
5. Menjaga kereta dgn baik
- Kreta Myvi tu aku paham kena jga baik2. Rezki nk dpt keta da smpai jadi aku harus memanfaatkannya. Pasni kena slalu cuci since keta tu putih. Pastu kena bersih dan harap2 xde saman dlm mahupun luar kampus. Dan plg aku berharap adlh xadanya accident. InsyaAllah.
6. Raise up my level of confident
- This will help me in everything..heheh...
7. Belajar lebih rajin, smart and focus, focus, focus!
- Aku confident kali ni dpt DL lg! perkara plg aku suka utk buat ialah membuat parents ku bangga. :)))) I want to focus on studies so that I
Well, I can't think of anymore azam....so this is it la kot....byk lg sbnrnya, kot la...but I cant remember...well, I really hope I can make it this time. And boleh capai klau x smua, at least sedikit drpd azam ku ini..hehe...Selamat berjaya kpd diriku! =)
Sunday, December 20, 2009
The story of a Couple and What come out of it
Ada seorang perempuan bernama N hidup di dunia ini, hidup seperti mana perempuan2 lain yg sama usia dgnnya. Dia baru habis sekolah, hidup keluarga pun susah jd xdpt nk teruskan pengajian tinggi. Maka dia cuma mencari duit dgn mencari kerja. Ini kisah pula hanyalah kisah cinta dia. Sebelum ini, dia hanya ada beberapa 'cinta monyet' dengan beberapa lelaki, tetapi smuanya tidak serius dan hanya utk mainan shja. Sampai satu masa dia bertemu dgn seorg lelaki ni, cinta sejati dia. Bak kta org putih, "First Love". Mereka jatuh cinta dan perhubungan mereka sampai masing2 telah berfikir ttg masa depan mereka bersama, hidup bersama, mendirikan rumah tangga. Kerana semuanya adalah masa yg tepat dan sesuai sekali. Si jejakanya 'handsome', kaya, kerja stable...manakala yg perempuannya pula sudah ada kerja stable dan ada duit simpanan, cantik dan sexy pula, pandai berfashion. Model kebaya pulak masa time tu.
Tetapi jodoh dan takdir semuanya di tangan Allah SWT. Disebabkan perbezaan background dan family diorg, mereka terpaksa dipisahkan. Kluarga sebelah perempuan tidak suka dgn kluarga lelaki, anggap org kaya smuanya sama, takut lepas kahwin nnt laki carik bini baru & blah3. Kluarga lelaki plak xsuka dgn kluarga belah prempuan krna standard xsama. Bayangkan anda msh bercinta melekat mcm magnet, tetapi terpaksa ditarik lari....sakitnya hanya Tuhan yg tahu. Maka si perempuan pun sgt lah sedih. Sehingga pernah terfikir nak bunuh diri, dan skit lg nak lari dr rumah, kahwin lari tetapi abg2 nya sempat menangkap beliau dan bwk dia balik rmh, dan di pukul, agr x memalukan nma kluarga.
Selepas tu....walaupun dia hanya mampu melupakan lelaki idamannya itu, life must go on. Dia teruskan bekerja dan jumpa beberapa org lelaki yg berminat dgnnya. Lumrah bercinta, ada sorg laki ni penipu...sorg lagi a cheater. Tp dia x penah hiraukan sgt bila bab bercinta. Bila laki tu dah xmau dgn dia, dia let go. Mungkin dia telah belajar dr cinta pertamanya tentang perihal cinta.
Dalam masa yg sama, seorg lelaki telah menunggunya selama 3 tahun utk lbeh mengenalinya lbeh rapat. Lelaki ini sering kali pergi ke kedai runcit bapanya hanya utk berjumpa dgn perempuan idamanua. Sampai satu masa, lelaki ini datang kedai runcit itu teramat lah lmbt smpai kedai nk tutup. Utk dijadikan alasan, dia ckp mak dia nk mkn rojak, jd dia beli SEMUA rojak yg tinggal. Padahal lepas tu dia bg kt smuaorg utk kongsi2 mkn, & dlm msa yg lama, mencari perempuan itu, hanya utk berjumpa dgnnya. Abg dia ckp, "Aaahh, layan sudah!" Maka dia pun melayan laki ni, diorg bercakap2, pasal kehidupan, psl kluarga msg2, dan bak kta org, "the suddenly clicks".
Lepas tu diorg mula membuat janji temu, kluar bersama2 smpai satu masa laki tu ckp nk bawanya jumpa org tua. Paham2 laaa maksud...:) Dia berfikir kpd dirinya. The truth is, this woman doesn't love this man as much as he loves her. But perasaan sayang and care tu ada. But would you not accept the man who loves you when u dont love them? Dia berfikir....Kalau jodoh dah ditakdirkan dia berkahwin dgn lelaki ini, perkahwinannya akn berjalan lancar sehingga akhir masa. Jika tidak, Allah Wa'lam...Dia berserah kpd takdir...dan takdir membawanya ke jalan yg betul. Akhirnya perempuan ini berkahwin dgn lelaki ini, walaupun dia tidak "crazily in love" dgn lelaki ini, tetapi dia adalah jodohnya dan dia harus menerimanya. Kerana Nabi sendiri berkahwin dgn wanita utk menolong mereka, dan bukan atas dasar cinta sepenuh jiwa. Sekarang, mereka masih lagi hidup bersama, walaupun pertelingkahan besar sudah tidak terkira banyaknya terjadi dlm kehidupan mereka, tetapi mereka cekal hidup bersama, dengan perasaan sayang dan care that keep them together.
Dlam cerita di ats, aku telah byk belajar drpdnya.
1. Satunya adalah Cinta tidak akan berkekalan, tetapi Sayang, ya....sampai ke kiamat pun tidak akan pudar jika trust dan tanggungjawab tu ada. Dalam Psychology pun ada ckp, a relationship that is based on love doesnt last, but a relationship that is based on companionship and friendship does.
2. Jodoh ditangan Tuhan. Ya, memang semua org tahu tu. Tapi dr sini aku belajar bhwa camna pun kta bercinta teruk2, bercinta dgn motto "I'll die without you", tidak akan kemana jika bukan jodoh. Tgk jela crita diatas. Mereka sudah merancang hndak hidup brsama, semuanya dah ckup. Tetapi takdirnya bukan dgn lelaki itu, maka dibuatkan cerita jadi msalah, kluarga pulak yg menghalang kan? Haa...sbnrnya, sudah 20 tahun berkahwin, perempuan itu bertemu juga dgn first love nya dulu. Tetapi dia bertindak rasional bila laki tu ajk "catch up". Dan ini mbawa kpda pelajarann ke 3.
3. Pentingnya Rasional, tidak kira dlm percintaan mahupun Kehidupan. Aku mula belajar utk menggunakan rasional, otak dan logik dlm kehidupan ini dan percintaan agar ku bahagia. Aku belajar bukan saja dr crita ni, juga dr experience, dr kesakitan hati dan dari kekuatan jiwa ku menangani masalah. Kerana aku dapati dan telah merasai betapa seksanya hidup jika dibelenggu dgn emosi. Aku belajar yang membiarkan emosi menguasai kehidupan dan pemikiran serta pemilihan hidup, akan membuat kta binasa. Kerana ikt kpda science jgk, hati x wujud! haha...hati adalah hempedu dan hempedu kta xde perasaan kan? :) Jadi gunalah otak.
4. Independence. Benda ni TERAMATLAH penting utk diri sendiri, especialy bg perempuan. (Notice how I bold the word?) Sbb apa yg ada seorg aunty ni ckp kt aku wlauapun dia bkn aunty aku, tp apa dia ckp sgt menolongku. Dia ckp, kita harus independen, depend kpda diri sendiri, sbb tu pentingnya pelajaran jgk. Klau lah satu hari nnt dh brkahwin, laki org shh, awk jugak yg bg nafkah dgn adanya pelajran dn ur independency. Klau tiba2 laki awk mati ke, atau worst, tinggalkan awk...apa yg awk ada klau awk depends ngn org lain? Itu la pentingnya independen dan pelajaran.......
5. Aku belajar perihal lelaki. I found out about this: "A man wants to be with woman that makes them feel like man." Xpyh gtau la mana dpt, mgkin dr org lain, mgkin dari.....anyway, lelaki xsuka bila perempuan tu needy dan worry about the relationship too much rather than enjoy the relationship.....Aku belajar benda tu skit skali dan harap2 dpt buat apa yg ptut dr apa yg dipelajari ni...krana ianya utk kebahagiaan diri sendri jgk.
Aku skrg da tekad utk berubah. Berubah bukan kerana sebab2 tertentu. Tetapi semuanya utk kebahagiaan sendiri. Org ckp, Love yourself first before you love someone else. I am determined to find out the real me, what I really want in life, and what I can come out of it. Dan pada masa yg sama, niat yg kuat dihati, dan berserah segalanya kepada Tuhan yang Maha Esa. Kerana niat + usaha + berserah kpd takdir membawa kpd kebahagiaan dan kejayaan hidup. (Satu lg benda yg aku bljr)
Aku akhiri dgn ucapan InsyaAllah, dgn takdirNya aku menjalani kehidupan ini ke jalan yg lurus dan betul.
Tetapi jodoh dan takdir semuanya di tangan Allah SWT. Disebabkan perbezaan background dan family diorg, mereka terpaksa dipisahkan. Kluarga sebelah perempuan tidak suka dgn kluarga lelaki, anggap org kaya smuanya sama, takut lepas kahwin nnt laki carik bini baru & blah3. Kluarga lelaki plak xsuka dgn kluarga belah prempuan krna standard xsama. Bayangkan anda msh bercinta melekat mcm magnet, tetapi terpaksa ditarik lari....sakitnya hanya Tuhan yg tahu. Maka si perempuan pun sgt lah sedih. Sehingga pernah terfikir nak bunuh diri, dan skit lg nak lari dr rumah, kahwin lari tetapi abg2 nya sempat menangkap beliau dan bwk dia balik rmh, dan di pukul, agr x memalukan nma kluarga.
Selepas tu....walaupun dia hanya mampu melupakan lelaki idamannya itu, life must go on. Dia teruskan bekerja dan jumpa beberapa org lelaki yg berminat dgnnya. Lumrah bercinta, ada sorg laki ni penipu...sorg lagi a cheater. Tp dia x penah hiraukan sgt bila bab bercinta. Bila laki tu dah xmau dgn dia, dia let go. Mungkin dia telah belajar dr cinta pertamanya tentang perihal cinta.
Dalam masa yg sama, seorg lelaki telah menunggunya selama 3 tahun utk lbeh mengenalinya lbeh rapat. Lelaki ini sering kali pergi ke kedai runcit bapanya hanya utk berjumpa dgn perempuan idamanua. Sampai satu masa, lelaki ini datang kedai runcit itu teramat lah lmbt smpai kedai nk tutup. Utk dijadikan alasan, dia ckp mak dia nk mkn rojak, jd dia beli SEMUA rojak yg tinggal. Padahal lepas tu dia bg kt smuaorg utk kongsi2 mkn, & dlm msa yg lama, mencari perempuan itu, hanya utk berjumpa dgnnya. Abg dia ckp, "Aaahh, layan sudah!" Maka dia pun melayan laki ni, diorg bercakap2, pasal kehidupan, psl kluarga msg2, dan bak kta org, "the suddenly clicks".
Lepas tu diorg mula membuat janji temu, kluar bersama2 smpai satu masa laki tu ckp nk bawanya jumpa org tua. Paham2 laaa maksud...:) Dia berfikir kpd dirinya. The truth is, this woman doesn't love this man as much as he loves her. But perasaan sayang and care tu ada. But would you not accept the man who loves you when u dont love them? Dia berfikir....Kalau jodoh dah ditakdirkan dia berkahwin dgn lelaki ini, perkahwinannya akn berjalan lancar sehingga akhir masa. Jika tidak, Allah Wa'lam...Dia berserah kpd takdir...dan takdir membawanya ke jalan yg betul. Akhirnya perempuan ini berkahwin dgn lelaki ini, walaupun dia tidak "crazily in love" dgn lelaki ini, tetapi dia adalah jodohnya dan dia harus menerimanya. Kerana Nabi sendiri berkahwin dgn wanita utk menolong mereka, dan bukan atas dasar cinta sepenuh jiwa. Sekarang, mereka masih lagi hidup bersama, walaupun pertelingkahan besar sudah tidak terkira banyaknya terjadi dlm kehidupan mereka, tetapi mereka cekal hidup bersama, dengan perasaan sayang dan care that keep them together.
Dlam cerita di ats, aku telah byk belajar drpdnya.
1. Satunya adalah Cinta tidak akan berkekalan, tetapi Sayang, ya....sampai ke kiamat pun tidak akan pudar jika trust dan tanggungjawab tu ada. Dalam Psychology pun ada ckp, a relationship that is based on love doesnt last, but a relationship that is based on companionship and friendship does.
2. Jodoh ditangan Tuhan. Ya, memang semua org tahu tu. Tapi dr sini aku belajar bhwa camna pun kta bercinta teruk2, bercinta dgn motto "I'll die without you", tidak akan kemana jika bukan jodoh. Tgk jela crita diatas. Mereka sudah merancang hndak hidup brsama, semuanya dah ckup. Tetapi takdirnya bukan dgn lelaki itu, maka dibuatkan cerita jadi msalah, kluarga pulak yg menghalang kan? Haa...sbnrnya, sudah 20 tahun berkahwin, perempuan itu bertemu juga dgn first love nya dulu. Tetapi dia bertindak rasional bila laki tu ajk "catch up". Dan ini mbawa kpda pelajarann ke 3.
3. Pentingnya Rasional, tidak kira dlm percintaan mahupun Kehidupan. Aku mula belajar utk menggunakan rasional, otak dan logik dlm kehidupan ini dan percintaan agar ku bahagia. Aku belajar bukan saja dr crita ni, juga dr experience, dr kesakitan hati dan dari kekuatan jiwa ku menangani masalah. Kerana aku dapati dan telah merasai betapa seksanya hidup jika dibelenggu dgn emosi. Aku belajar yang membiarkan emosi menguasai kehidupan dan pemikiran serta pemilihan hidup, akan membuat kta binasa. Kerana ikt kpda science jgk, hati x wujud! haha...hati adalah hempedu dan hempedu kta xde perasaan kan? :) Jadi gunalah otak.
4. Independence. Benda ni TERAMATLAH penting utk diri sendiri, especialy bg perempuan. (Notice how I bold the word?) Sbb apa yg ada seorg aunty ni ckp kt aku wlauapun dia bkn aunty aku, tp apa dia ckp sgt menolongku. Dia ckp, kita harus independen, depend kpda diri sendiri, sbb tu pentingnya pelajaran jgk. Klau lah satu hari nnt dh brkahwin, laki org shh, awk jugak yg bg nafkah dgn adanya pelajran dn ur independency. Klau tiba2 laki awk mati ke, atau worst, tinggalkan awk...apa yg awk ada klau awk depends ngn org lain? Itu la pentingnya independen dan pelajaran.......
5. Aku belajar perihal lelaki. I found out about this: "A man wants to be with woman that makes them feel like man." Xpyh gtau la mana dpt, mgkin dr org lain, mgkin dari.....anyway, lelaki xsuka bila perempuan tu needy dan worry about the relationship too much rather than enjoy the relationship.....Aku belajar benda tu skit skali dan harap2 dpt buat apa yg ptut dr apa yg dipelajari ni...krana ianya utk kebahagiaan diri sendri jgk.
Aku skrg da tekad utk berubah. Berubah bukan kerana sebab2 tertentu. Tetapi semuanya utk kebahagiaan sendiri. Org ckp, Love yourself first before you love someone else. I am determined to find out the real me, what I really want in life, and what I can come out of it. Dan pada masa yg sama, niat yg kuat dihati, dan berserah segalanya kepada Tuhan yang Maha Esa. Kerana niat + usaha + berserah kpd takdir membawa kpd kebahagiaan dan kejayaan hidup. (Satu lg benda yg aku bljr)
Aku akhiri dgn ucapan InsyaAllah, dgn takdirNya aku menjalani kehidupan ini ke jalan yg lurus dan betul.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Dear You...
Dear you...
You have made my life wonderful, colorful and beautiful...
After you came into my life, you added the chapter in my story...
You open my eyes about everything...how wonderful music is...how the world evolves around succesful people...how we should appreciate other's pengorbanan...how we should love our parents and balas jasa diorg seadanya...
I never could have dream how bahagia my life is that time.
Hidup I penuh bermakna dgn you ada disisi. You bagi I lebih banyak berfikir about the world, the people around me and everything...
I thought I could never found someone that have a lot in common with me, with the way we think, our opinion about some things or music or anything for that matter....even though we do have differences, but I take that differences as an experience for me to get to know you better, and to get other reviews than mine...and so do you I guess.
You love me the way I am...You share about your life to me...You have your own cute way in expressing things or buat muka at anything...You don't even care how I look whether messy or pretty....You are really gentle with girls, especially me, couldn't hurt me even once....You are passionate at things you love the most...You know how to layan me at certain times, eventhough you say you are not a gentleman, you are...And for all of this and much more, I appreciate everything that you've done...and I love you for that.
And I did everything for you to do just that...to show that I love you too, I appreciate everything you did.
Even though you have weaknesses, things that Idon't like you to do... but if anyone asked me right now what you hated the most about him? I would say I hated him because he makes me fall in love with him. Because all those weaknesses that he have, just makes him...as himself...the way I know him..the way I like him...the way I love that I him.
Somehow fate has brought us apart, and I redha dgn ketentuan itu. You hurt me inside, you break my heart apart...You took my heart and shred it into pieces...but why would you want to step on it and rub it to my face?
I have accomplish a lot in my life, I made myself as who I am today...don't you say I am just depending on others to live...I am a strong girl, I know when I fall down, I have to get up once more and started running again.
What do you really want in your life? What do you really want? Well, I know what I want in life. And I will accomplish it. To forward in my lifelong dream wouold be a dream come true...and being with you just the added bonus. I am totally not using anyone to fulfill my dream. I am standing on my own, I just have to win the 'awards' along the way to the top. Whatever the awards may be (have a lot of best friends, loving boyfriend, have my own car, being rich).
Would you do the same? I want you to be happy my dear. I don't want you to be stuck in the middle, not knowing what to do next, getting yourself influenced by your messed up friends (yes, they are mostly messed up, sorry...) and couldn't live your dreams. You have a great potential in your life, you dream big, and that's what I like you the most. I love hearing all your dreams and ambition...because it fired up the passion in me too to be succesful in life. Thank you for that.
You know what, seeing you being happy, getting up after you fall down, ignoring other obstacles that is unneccessary, would make me be a much happier person too.
Yeah, I may be not the one who understand you the most...I may not be the person who you like the most at this moment. But it's the same for us too...You said I didn't look at the way you live at other places, and it is the same as me. You didn't look the way I live with others yet... Yeah, I guess we both didn't take the real time to understand each other....and that is okay for me.
The thing about you are the reasons of everything in my life. Yes, before this and after that too. Right now, right here...If I make one decision, it is because of you. If I stay...it is because of you. If I leave, it is also because of you my dear. I am afraid I would get hurt again. That's why the reasons become like that.
Well....
I just hope that you will get what you want in life and have a happy wonderful life...
Sincerely,
Determined
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Dissapointed
I am feeling really dissapointed on someone. Really really dissapointed that, that someone would say something like that. Before that thing happened, that someone don't act out like that. Now I'm like a piece of shit to that someone. I feel like a shit when I'm with that someone. When I tell that someone what its really feel like, that someone practically ignores it and doesn't take the matter seriusly. Worst, that someone take it as if I'm the one who got the problem who always blabs about this. I'm not. I did but I'm just feeling unhappy. Really unhappy. Disspointed.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Merapu dgn tajuk lagu
RULES:
1. Put your winamp,iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write down the song name no matter how silly it sounds.
4. Have Fun! :D
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
::Where is the love?? (BEP)
2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
:: Slow down baby (Christina aguilera)
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
:: Heels Over Head (BLG)
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
:: Unwell (Matchbox Twenty)
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
:: Cant Get u Outta My head (Kylie Mynogue)
6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
:: Goodnight & Goodbye (Metrostation)
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
:: Take your sweet time (jesse mccartney)
8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
:: Losing Grip (Avril Lavigne) WEYH!!! Hahahha
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
:: Life after lisa (BFS) ->Im still not over her ok...haha
10. WHAT YOU ALWAYS DO DURING TAKE 5?
:: Graduation (Vit C) Wahahaha!!
11. WHAT IS 2 + 2?
:: Trucker Hat (BFS) [Aku bodo doe...haha]
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
:: Love Story (Taylor Swift) [Agak btol la kot.haha]
13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
:: Dead and Gone (T.I ft Justin) [Bangang tol..ahah!]
14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
::Complicated (Avril Lavigne) [Aish, cam tau2 je.haha]
15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
:: You better pray (the red jumpsuit apparatus)
16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
:: Heartbreak (Will.i.am)
17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
:: Amnesia (Britney spears)
18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
:: Love Stoned (Justin Timberlake)
19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
:: Hurt (Christina Aguilera) [haa...btol2]
20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
:: Stick With You (PCD) [WAHAHAH!]
21. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
:: What I've done (linkin park)
22. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
:: This I promise u (n'sync)
23. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
:: Hot Stuff (Ashlee Simpson)
Opening Credits:
: Right round (flo rida)
Waking Up:
: ocean avenue (yellowcard)
First Day At School:
: Im leaving on a jet plane (Ape tah nma...)
Puppy Love:
Misery Business (Paramore) [Wa la weyh]
Fight Song:
: Somewhere I belong (linkin park) [wah, best2]
Breaking Up:
: Life is wonderful (jason mraz) [hahahahha!]
Prom:
: Shut up (bep)
Life is Good:
: Whoa Oh Me Vs Everyone (Forever the sickest)
Driving:
: Callin u (Outlandish)
Flashback:
: Wish we were older (metrostation)
True Love:
: Im just a kid (simple plan)
Wedding:
: La la land (demi lovato)
Moment of Triumph:
: Roller Coster (blink 182)
Death Scene:
: First Time (lifehouse)
Funeral Song:
: Dangerous to know (hilary duff)
End Credits:
: I hate this song (secondhand serenade)
1. Put your winamp,iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write down the song name no matter how silly it sounds.
4. Have Fun! :D
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
::Where is the love?? (BEP)
2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
:: Slow down baby (Christina aguilera)
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
:: Heels Over Head (BLG)
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
:: Unwell (Matchbox Twenty)
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
:: Cant Get u Outta My head (Kylie Mynogue)
6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
:: Goodnight & Goodbye (Metrostation)
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
:: Take your sweet time (jesse mccartney)
8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
:: Losing Grip (Avril Lavigne) WEYH!!! Hahahha
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
:: Life after lisa (BFS) ->Im still not over her ok...haha
10. WHAT YOU ALWAYS DO DURING TAKE 5?
:: Graduation (Vit C) Wahahaha!!
11. WHAT IS 2 + 2?
:: Trucker Hat (BFS) [Aku bodo doe...haha]
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
:: Love Story (Taylor Swift) [Agak btol la kot.haha]
13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
:: Dead and Gone (T.I ft Justin) [Bangang tol..ahah!]
14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
::Complicated (Avril Lavigne) [Aish, cam tau2 je.haha]
15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
:: You better pray (the red jumpsuit apparatus)
16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
:: Heartbreak (Will.i.am)
17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
:: Amnesia (Britney spears)
18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
:: Love Stoned (Justin Timberlake)
19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
:: Hurt (Christina Aguilera) [haa...btol2]
20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
:: Stick With You (PCD) [WAHAHAH!]
21. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
:: What I've done (linkin park)
22. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
:: This I promise u (n'sync)
23. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
:: Hot Stuff (Ashlee Simpson)
Opening Credits:
: Right round (flo rida)
Waking Up:
: ocean avenue (yellowcard)
First Day At School:
: Im leaving on a jet plane (Ape tah nma...)
Puppy Love:
Misery Business (Paramore) [Wa la weyh]
Fight Song:
: Somewhere I belong (linkin park) [wah, best2]
Breaking Up:
: Life is wonderful (jason mraz) [hahahahha!]
Prom:
: Shut up (bep)
Life is Good:
: Whoa Oh Me Vs Everyone (Forever the sickest)
Driving:
: Callin u (Outlandish)
Flashback:
: Wish we were older (metrostation)
True Love:
: Im just a kid (simple plan)
Wedding:
: La la land (demi lovato)
Moment of Triumph:
: Roller Coster (blink 182)
Death Scene:
: First Time (lifehouse)
Funeral Song:
: Dangerous to know (hilary duff)
End Credits:
: I hate this song (secondhand serenade)
Being sarcastic & mean (another survey)
Objective: Are you mean and sarcastic? Have you ever answered people ‘meanly’ and sarcastically? If yes, show us how mean and sarcastic you are! If no, then you should try at least once in your life with this note.
Rule: Respond to these as sarcastic/mean as you could.
(YR stands for Your Response.)
If an annoying person says:
1) I am cute.
YR:Im cuter...
2) I am the most beautiful/handsome:
YR: In the category of most hideoust person.
3) See, everyone likes me because I am rich and famous!
YR: Wop, u got that wrong cuz I hate u
4) Unlike you, I am perfectly multi-skilled. I do everything very well from sports to academic thingy..
YR: Can you do the multi ape face too?
5) You don’t know me? I am Bruneian artist; I have albums.
YR: Urgh...ur wasting my time
If an annoying hot woman/man says:(if hes really2 hot)
1) I know you like me.
YR: I know u like me too.. :P
2) What are you looking at? I am not interested in you!
YR: Sorry, I was looking at ur hideous slickiest I-dont-wash-it-for-a-week hair.
3) Sorry, you are nice but seriously not my type!
YR: Who says ur my type too?
4) UNLESS you are rich, then don’t dream that I will get a ride with you!
YR: I dont have a car bitch
5) Look, I am pretty/handsome; I can make people hate you!
YR: Really? Im impressed....*Wat muke sarcastic
If an annoying extremely ugly woman/man says:(if hes really ugly)
1) I think you and I can make a good couple.
YR: I think you and my handicapped cat with one eye can make a good couple
2) May I have your cell phone no? please please please?
YR: Sorry, phone aku rosak
3) Hi, wanna hang out? I want you to be with me the whole night..
YR: I'd rather be with a one-eyed monster
4) What do you like about me?
YR: Eeeee...geli!
5) I want you to say that I am pretty/handsome and you like me sooooo much!
YR: MOTIF??
If your enemy says:
1) Hi bitch!
YR: Hi Motherfucka!
2) You smell like shit!
YR: You smell like horse shit
3) What an ugly creature you are!
YR: Aww...thanks..you too...
4) I am going to kick your ass in this race for sure!
YR: Im going to kick ur nut then...:D
If your annoying ex says:
1) I still love you...
YR: So?
2) I know you still love me!
YR: Haram!
3) Please, go back with me honey/hubby..
YR: When hell freezes over
4) Please call me...
YR: Tepon aku xdpt call num kau jela...aku pun xtau nape.
5) The break up hurt me so much..
YR: Rasa ape ek?
If an annoying salesperson says:
1) Wow! You are so pretty/handsome!
YR: I know
2) Seriously, I used this product and I've Changed!
YR: Changed into what?
3) We are giving a discount up to 50%!
YR: Aku nmpak la tag die buduh
4) This one is good sir/madam. Buy sir/madam, buy..
YR: X tanya pun???
Rule: Respond to these as sarcastic/mean as you could.
(YR stands for Your Response.)
If an annoying person says:
1) I am cute.
YR:Im cuter...
2) I am the most beautiful/handsome:
YR: In the category of most hideoust person.
3) See, everyone likes me because I am rich and famous!
YR: Wop, u got that wrong cuz I hate u
4) Unlike you, I am perfectly multi-skilled. I do everything very well from sports to academic thingy..
YR: Can you do the multi ape face too?
5) You don’t know me? I am Bruneian artist; I have albums.
YR: Urgh...ur wasting my time
If an annoying hot woman/man says:(if hes really2 hot)
1) I know you like me.
YR: I know u like me too.. :P
2) What are you looking at? I am not interested in you!
YR: Sorry, I was looking at ur hideous slickiest I-dont-wash-it-for-a-week hair.
3) Sorry, you are nice but seriously not my type!
YR: Who says ur my type too?
4) UNLESS you are rich, then don’t dream that I will get a ride with you!
YR: I dont have a car bitch
5) Look, I am pretty/handsome; I can make people hate you!
YR: Really? Im impressed....*Wat muke sarcastic
If an annoying extremely ugly woman/man says:(if hes really ugly)
1) I think you and I can make a good couple.
YR: I think you and my handicapped cat with one eye can make a good couple
2) May I have your cell phone no? please please please?
YR: Sorry, phone aku rosak
3) Hi, wanna hang out? I want you to be with me the whole night..
YR: I'd rather be with a one-eyed monster
4) What do you like about me?
YR: Eeeee...geli!
5) I want you to say that I am pretty/handsome and you like me sooooo much!
YR: MOTIF??
If your enemy says:
1) Hi bitch!
YR: Hi Motherfucka!
2) You smell like shit!
YR: You smell like horse shit
3) What an ugly creature you are!
YR: Aww...thanks..you too...
4) I am going to kick your ass in this race for sure!
YR: Im going to kick ur nut then...:D
If your annoying ex says:
1) I still love you...
YR: So?
2) I know you still love me!
YR: Haram!
3) Please, go back with me honey/hubby..
YR: When hell freezes over
4) Please call me...
YR: Tepon aku xdpt call num kau jela...aku pun xtau nape.
5) The break up hurt me so much..
YR: Rasa ape ek?
If an annoying salesperson says:
1) Wow! You are so pretty/handsome!
YR: I know
2) Seriously, I used this product and I've Changed!
YR: Changed into what?
3) We are giving a discount up to 50%!
YR: Aku nmpak la tag die buduh
4) This one is good sir/madam. Buy sir/madam, buy..
YR: X tanya pun???
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