What happen when you were unheard?

Aku terasa agk geram & frustrated ptg ni...sbb kadang2 ni, org bukannya nk dgr ckp kte. Kdg2 diorg mmg buat2 x dgr, tp ada kalanya mmg pekak nauzubillah.huh...

Bygkan dlm situasi begini yg membuatku panas aje...

aku: berckp dgn seorg laki brnama T
T:brckp
*tetiba seorg bdk ni nma A dtg pggl T.*
A: Wei, T, ko dh ada kump lom utk class ....(xbleh dinyatakan.haha)
T:xde la...
Aku menyampuk: Ha! A! I nk u msk kump i jom...
*A tgk kjp kt aku den pndg T blik*
A: Aku mls r nk sma2 kump ag ngn bebudak tu...
Skali lg aku menyampuk: I pun nk crk kump ni..mls nk kump ngn org yg sma
T: Aku pun sma gk. Ko xde kump kn? jom r sma.
A: Ha, tu la.Ok...kte sma2 ek
Aku: I pun nk crk kump baru gk........
A:Habeh spe lg 2? die nk 4 kan?
T: Si S r pe gi...
Aku: I nk kump gk la.....
A:Sape lg sorg?
Aku: hummmpphhh...
T:Tu....(menunjuk kt sorg classmate)
A: Ha...ok gak..orite r...

Ok, paham kan situation ini. Aku macam tunggul kat situ...and clearly dh ckp nkkan kump baru...Adoyai, kdg2 laki ni sgt2 la oblivious. Xnmpk, xpaham pape pun...hish..sakit ati gak r...
bygkan la cube dlm situation ni..panas je...huh!
Pdhl awl2 td da mengajak si A kn yg aku nk brkumpulan ngn die...huh...xpaham2 r... Klo xnk tu ckp jela...tp setahu aku, 2 org tu xde mslh lgsg ngn diriku ni..haha...
ntah la...

nden pastu....T n me pg la mkn...sbnrnya aku puase tp nk ikt kwn2 lain mkn. kdai mkn tu dkt je ngn U ktorg n ada 1 jam lg nk maghrib. So, aku ckp la kt T, juz utk bgtau for a fact je..
"Eh, klo kte pg ke bndr ke ape ke, sng ag..sbb kta mgkin akn smpai kul 7 so bkeh tggu mknn dlm stgh jam lg...xyah r tggu lme2."
Pastu tetibe T ckp, "Eeeeiii....mana satu ni...nk pg klua ke cni?" sumthing like that la... tp agk membuatkan kte terasa r..sape x terasa..bygkn, klo ko tgh ckp innocently kan, den die buat expression mcm die dh menyampah kt kte membebel...x terasa ke cmtu? aku trus terdiam. Nak ckp ag pun da ilang trus mood, nk gduh ngn die kt public plak. Tkut gk sbb kdg2 aku ni xdpt kwl suara...haha...And then kan, die ckp bleh je klo nk pg tpt lain & kte same2 tggu r smpai 7.30...aku yg dh terilang mood pastu mmg pun nk mkn ngn kengkawan, dh x terjwb soalan die tu...so aku klua la jln2 jap nk tngkn diri n bli sumthing kt 7E. Bler aku msuk balik, aku tgk die da mkn! stgh abis plak tu! Eh, td ckp bleh jer nk bwk aku mkn tpt lain...aku xckp pape pun yg aku nk mkn sni ke x...die suke suki je order mknn n makan. xpikir lgsg psl kte. N kte pg menghilang xmencarik pun aku ktne..juz bg sms tye ktne je. Klo aku klua n kena lggar lori ke ape ke, aku rsa die akn teruskan mkn je n xksah lgsg smpai aku jwb sms die.HUH! Mkin la aku sakit ati tgk die mkn. Dh la x hormat lgsg org tgh pose, xminx jemput mkn pun. Td serious die ckp nk tman skali mkn, tggu skali...ish...dasar laki...xtau r nk ckp ape.

Hari ni terasa mcm dibangangkan aje. Fells like a fool today. FUCK.

Still a dream....

You see, I have this fantasy about having so much money and i would spent one whole day shopping till I drop...literally...

If I could...these are a few of the things that I'd like to buy..just look at how cute these things are...well, mostly, it comes from Roxy but I'd like to have MNG, ELLE, and so much more of the clothes...heheh..

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AAAHHH..THE BEST SEDUCTION OF ALL...NEW AND GORGEOUS STUFF.

Blast Day...My Birthday!

On 17 June 2009, I turned 19 years old. Not old enough for me to feel mature though. My friends and I had planned to have a picnic at Matang Family Park (Sungai Cina, under the Serapi Mount). First, all of my friends, Syidah, Fiq, Rathy, Hazim and Bai, along with her cousin, Bang Buck who will be our 'guidance' / tour guide / driver. Hahaha..poor him...but anyway, we took off from my house when all of them arrived there around 10 am. Me & Syidah were in teh car with Bai and Bang Buck, & Bang Buck as our tour guide, he told us all the story abt old history of some village we passed on, some creepy japanese war or something and ok, I should stop. It was fun, ut let's move on.

We arrived around 10.45 am and we took our spot which is so far away from the public. The place was incredibly beautiful (but not for some sampah people left there) and there was a few small waterfalls there. There's also like a small pool yg semulajadi terbentuk oleh batu2 besar kt situ and it was a perfect spot for us to swim. What's with ada akar dr pokok utk ktorg gayut2 n terjun dlm air.hahahhaha...We swam for awhile, enjoying ourselves. The water was FREEZING! Seriously! I only went into the water for abt 15 minutes then Im out of there. By the time Im out, evryone wanted to eat since it was already lunch time.

So we ate everything that we brought (sandwich, puding, snacks, coke & pepsi, mineral, bihun) because we're kinda hungry...hehe...While eating, we made a lot of jokes...seriously, nak pecah perut gelak x abeh2...well, practicaly, the whole time I was there, I was laughing, laughing, laughing and oh yeah! Laughing! Hahahhaha....

Ok, so then, Syidah, Hazim, Fiq n Rathy went back to swimming. Well, Fiq n Rathy were dating the whole time...hahah...while Bai n I really couldnt stand the water,we picked a great big rock for our spot n sunbathed! Hahaha... But it was not for long as suddenly Bang Buck walked away from us and explore the rest of the river. And we were curious so we followed! All of us except Rathy n Fiq. We had so much fun exploring the place. With so many slippy big rock, and great spots for photoshooting, it was a very beautiful place. Finally at the end of our exploration, we found another bigger waterfall and took a lot of pictures there. But apparentsly since tpt tu x byk org dtg, tpt tu pnuh dgn binatang yg I plg GELI!!! I found Katak...I SCREAMED! I found small fishes surrounding my legs...I SCREAMED! I found A big, long lipan n I almost scream..heheh... But it was fun though...Malu2 mmg malu pas menjerit but it was a memory yg menggelikan yg xdpt dilupakan..hahha...

So yeah, we tried to swim at the 'pool' of the bigger waterfall then but the dasar was too licin n there's so many fishes! hahaha..Then my darling Donut calls...Im so glad he called...cuz im missing him while im having all these funs with my frens...hehhe

Then Rathy called dr ulu sungai sruh ktorg balik coz fiq terpksa blik awl. Die nk ambk adik skolah kot..huhuh..so then we went back to our spots, kira nak berkemas tp skali guess what?

I turned around and suddenly the girls are throwing FLOUR at me!!! AAhhh!!! I baling balik tepung tu kt diorg and we laughed so much at each other for being white and ghostly..hahah... Bang Buck even perli Rathy dh mcm NENEK KLIWON sbb rmbt putih! Ngahahahahak!!! We laughed so hard at that.. I mean, supposedly nenek kebayan, tp tetiba nenek keliwon..ngahahhaha...xpasal2...

So then we have to wash ourselves again n swin for awhile to get rid of the flour yg mlekat2... Then...well, biasa la, kemas2..balik...then it's like so early for us who dont want to go home early, and we decided to go carik makan...so we just follow Bang Buck's lead..we are quite tired so we just follow n keep quiet in the car..Bang Buck said he will bring us to Pasir Pandak, another pantai at the other side of the world...hehehe..so we went there...n when we're almost there, we found out that Rathy, Fiq n Hazim r not following behing n they said that they decided to go back home. So we continue our journey. Dh smpai, Bang buck nk ambk tmpt berteduh bwh pkok, skali pasir byk sgt, kreta pun lekat........hahaha..ktorg girls pun tolong la tolak smbl teyar berpusing2 dlm pasir..tayar tu seriously dh stgh terbenam..haha..tp akhirnya dpt gk dikluarkn.

Then at the beach, it's hot so we bassically have photoshoot of our own..on the trees...seriously, atas pokok! And on the beach n in the water...hehe...so, okay, after that we all went home...

And just when I thought the day was over, as tired as I was, I went for a birthday dinner with my family! Wow! My mom wanted to give me a white gold necklace cost RM1500 and above with it's pendant RM5OO and above for my gift. It's like sooo crazy! Im like, I wanted it but it's like so unworthy. I'd be wearing tudung the whole time & i cant even show off my 2000 pure white gold necklace..hahha....So I said I don't want the necklace but I want a broadband instead. It's much cheaper and I'd be using it a lot more than a necklace. So yeah, my mom was a bit down but it's easier on her pocket so she went with it...hehe..And I finally got my broadband!! weehooo...And we have dinner at Kenny Rogers..uurrhhhmmm....missing the juicyness of the chicken...haha...so yeah...that is all..I had a blast and also very tired. Happy Birthday To Me!!!

Better to Give than Receive

Was it worth it to buy someone a gift that cost me more than a hundred for a belated birthday gift? People might say it would be worth it if you want to make it up to him or her for forgetting his or her birthday. Hahahaha... Well I'm certainly not a person who forgets people's birthday. I even remembered my old school mates' birthday even though I'm sure she's forgotten me overall already by now. Well, anyway, for me it's worth it. Because why? I love to buy stuff for people. Seriously, I don't know why, everytime I went out, most of my money are spent on something that would probably for someone, or a thing that might be shared with someone or just to impress someone. You know, not the thing to impress myself or to satisfy myself. I don't know why. It's like a disease or something. Here's the fact: I LOVE BUYING STUFF FOR OTHER PEOPLE!!!!

For example the things I bought recently that connected with someone:
1.The PC dvd game I bought, for me and my sister
2.RM114 spent for birthday gift
3.Belanja kawan makan
4.Slipers & necklace for my friendsand others...

Why I love buying stuff for people? Because I love to watch their face when they get the gifts. I love the feeling of GIVING. And u know what other thing is... I want those stuff too. I love to receive gifts too. And when I know other people loves receiving gifts too, I give them the chance of being happy by receiving it from me! I just want the person to feel what I feel when I receive a gift. The feeling of touching, smelling and appreciating things we receive, things we don't have to buy and at the same time very pretty to the eyes...Whoooh..I just love the euphoria of receiving it. And of course, I love the euphoria of giving gifts too. It's like a drug that keeps me addictive... just LOVE it when they open up the gift I BOUGHT for them. Weeeheee... I just hope those people will appreciate it as much as I do If I were in their shoes...heheh..

Well, like the saying says, "It's better to give than receive"....or something like that. I don't remember...hahha...

Knape English, tak Melayu?

Knape aku buat blog ni dlm English, bukan melayu? Eh, jgn slh anggap. Ygni xde kna mngena ngn smgt patriotik...hahah... Mungkin org lain yg bca blog ni akn fikir, tau la die terer English an, xyah la nk tunjuk2 die pandai plak. Sbnrnya, xde niat pun nk tunjuk. Aku pun tau xde sape nk bca blog yg xde nilai ni (kcuali bg diri sendri...hahha). Aku tgk kebanyakan member2 yg lain smua tulis blog dlm bhsa ibunda, tp aku sorg je cmni...

Tp pada hakikatnya (ceh) ada beberapa sebab aku tulis dlm English dan bkn Melayu. Ok, aku ni org Sarawak, so basically, I have 3 language yg dh dipelajari. Bahasa Melayu Biasa, Bahasa Sarawak & Bahasa Inggeris. So, aku ada 3 pilihan nk tulis dlm bhsa apa. U see, klau aku nk tulis dlm bhsa Melayu, member2 Sarawak plak ckp, "Ko buat blog tu utk member2 semenanjung ko je ke?" <----- Contoh jela..hahha...

And then, kalo nk tulis blog dlm bhsa Sarawak plak, member2 kt semenanjung pnin kpla membaca, x paham pape! ngahahaha...ni la mslhnya...jd, for a safer bet, nk selamat la kan...buat la dlm bhsa Inggeris....

Sekian Terima Kasih....

Trust and Parents related

Ok, u noe how does it feel when your parents just don't believe in your potential or just give u teh trust in something? How does it feel? It's horrifyingly frustrating. Because it's the nature of children since at the tender age to get parents' attention and then put their trust and believe on the child.

Well, it happen to me all the time, and the feelings overwhelmed me SUCKS! It's about driving and cars. You see, our family have 2 cars and both of it are freakin' big and expensive! I almost got my chance of having a car on my own, but I missed it because I was concern with my mom's wealth as debts are around her waist and so does my dad. So I said I wanted a car but not neccesarry needed it in this time. Well, ok, I was being so nice, even a pushover to my parents. That didn't bother me at all but when I finally found out that we were having a new freakin car and its fortuner (!!!), I was like, WTF??!!! What about the debts? Why buy new one when u just offer me a car who SOO needed it and it's smaller n cheaper? Well, A 4-wheel drive with SUV like and it's big and expensive. Just adding the big-and-expensive car collection of ours. I mean, common!!!! Why do these people have to buy BIG cars which is not suitable for teenagers to drive? U see, I've gotten my license for a year and a half now and my sister is soon going to learn to drive. It kills me n my sis, KILLS us to have a driver license in our wallet but couldn't do anything about it! Like I just said, I've had the license for more than a year, I should be good with cars by now. But u noe what? I'm still scared of driving a car in a busy town. I still feel jittery all over when I get into a car, just like I first started driving. This is so UNFAIR!

Ok, when we got the car, I thought I got the chance of driving it. I mean, it's more compact n nice inside, with power sterring and all, it's much more easier than driving a mercedes (yea, one of our cars), eventhough it's big at the outside. I've had experience driving a merc, but I think it's hard.huhuhuhu, I donno. Ok, get back to story. So I thought I have a chance, BUT TEEETTT... SO WRONG! let me tell ya...

Ok, so finally I was given a responsibilty to send my sis to tusyen when my mom went off to KL. Before this she was talking about how easy the car was to drive than merc to me, so I can help with being a chauffer for my sis. So FINNALLY my mom trust me in this responsibility n believe I could do it, after more a year n a half of having a license. Trust me, it's pretty hard to get my mom's trust in doing something. Doubting me n my sis is her number 1 career. So then I told my dad abt I have to send my sis off n mom let me use Fortuner because it's easier,n if anything would happen, it wud be cheaper to repair since its a less expensive car than merc. But my dad insist on using fortuner bcuz i guess well, it's new n it's big n high, just his taste of car so it's kinda hard to get it off his hand.Ok, so then I use merc to send my sis off (even that I felt guilty since my mom didn't let me use it but when finally talk 2 her, she said ok, i was grateful she believe in me. THANX MUM!).

Then my frens n i planned to hang out n we need a car bcuz I guess we juz get use of not depending on parents anymore with cars n plus we need to get from one place to another (I need 2 buy things at diffrent place) so we really need a car. All my frens juz informed me their cars cannot be use that day, n it's depend on me. So I talked to my dad abt this.And just like I afraid it wud be, he didn't let me. He wud juz send me off tomorow instead. MY LORD!!! U noe what he said? That it wud be hard 4 me 2 drive it since it's too big n blah blah blah blah.........Im a fast learner, trust me. It's good that I have my mom's trust in this, but now it's my dad's trust I need 2 win. God God God!!

Ok, u noe, if we don't believe that person, are we going to let it away juz like that? U have to trust them to do the thing for just one time n let u see that she HAVE THE POTENTIAL to do it! Or else she'll never learn!!! Ok, I need a car really2 badly. Next time my parents talk abt cars, I wont be a pushover and be nice! I have to stand up for my rights! I'm sick of being the one who cannot drive, seriously. Well,if Im not being fair, those people that just doesnt have license, it's their choice of not driving. But I have a passion in driving (not passion in CARS ye sayang) bcuz since the age of where Im illegal to drive, I wanted to drive anywhere I like, have the freedom. And now I have the chance in it, give me a chance of learning to get use to it...seriously people! Arrggghhh...right now Im just Geram..ok...huh..

Birthday

Finally an event worth celebrating in my life with someone I really like, but I wasn't there to celebrate it. My brithday coming up too and I don't think i have the mood celebrating it. I mean, my boyfriend isn't going to be here, Hani and Syidah probably going to Johor and KL soon and Bai is going to further her study by this early June. And my birthday is on 17th June! I am going to just celebrate it with Rathy and Shahida, if Shahida could go out anyway. There's just no special people around me to give me gifts, hugs, kisses maybe, and just have fun, on my birthday. I wish so much I have all the people I love around me when I turn 19. And I want to be there too on their birthday. Especially my boyfriend's which is today. But all I could do was sit here and wondering what gift I would buy for him. And if I buy something, the gift will be sent late anyway. Not that the courier service could give it on the day itself. This is so frustrating. I love birthdays!!! But I can't celebrate it. Huk...